I feel powerful enough (or perhaps in control is a better word) to not take nonsense anymore. Has it got to do with age? I'm getting wiser and tougher, am I not!
I recently received very unflattering (well, I find them unflattering) comments from a friend. Instead of rectifying things, he made it worse. So I asked for an apology or he gets off my list. When I say things, I MEAN THEM! So off he goes. Some people really think I'm a softie because I don't look I am MEAN enough. So try it.
The recent Monday morning, my sister suddenly went crazy and vented her anger on a stool during breakfast. Then we reprimanded her and got swore back at. It fumed me, we never did anything to provoke her, yet she always vent her work frustration at home. She's an annoying b!tch and I really wonder why we are borned in the same family. I took up the stool and I swore I could have throw that in her face. That ruined the start of my week but it soon got to the back of my mind. I haven't been talking to her since Monday but she's trying to make peace now. I seriously can't be bothered because I don't know when's her next outburst. So let's see how well we do in Chiang Mai, it's a bit of a risk to do a trip with her honestly. The last Hong Kong trip is already hell at times.
Why is it always my friends are taking me for granted??? Say NO to being nice, say NO to yes. But I am not tolerating all the sh!t now. Do it with tact or get the F out of my life. One of my close friends (I don't feel that close anymore) always talk to me as if she's commanding me. She will text me "Call me" whenever she's back. The thing is she can call me, right? I don't mind but I just don't like the way she says it. Can't she be more polite? When she talks to me on the phone or MSN, she screams (yea, try imagining it on MSN). IT IS ANNOYING. So finally today, I replied her, if she can't ask me nicely to ring her, then she should be the one calling! So fine, she's pissed, but she needs to know that's what she deserves to get as a reply.
Du grosses Gestirn! Was wäre dein Glück, wenn du nicht Die hättest, welchen du leuchtest! Oh great star! What would be your happiness if you had not those for whom you shine for? ― Friedrich Nietzsche
22.9.11
21.9.11
It used to be a nuisance...
Smartest idea ;)
Why won't they sell ice cream at half price on rainy days???
Well, isn't it so, what's the possibility of anyone getting it during such cold weather???
I would buy it if it's half the price! Anyhow, I had the passion fruit gelato earlier, it was drizzling, at least better than the cold evening the day before. So sour, so to my liking!!
(This reminds me how Giordano sells umbrellas at half price on rainy days!)
Well, isn't it so, what's the possibility of anyone getting it during such cold weather???
I would buy it if it's half the price! Anyhow, I had the passion fruit gelato earlier, it was drizzling, at least better than the cold evening the day before. So sour, so to my liking!!
(This reminds me how Giordano sells umbrellas at half price on rainy days!)
16.9.11
Randomness XIX
The other night, someone's legs caught my eyes. They glittered at night. As she walked closer, I realised they were wrapped in plastic wrap, it must be some slimming treatment. I wonder if she knows they are probably a bit attention seeking.
It has been one year!!! Someone I thought I liked a year ago has now diminished, and sometimes I even forget what he's called. Geez, memory ;) I am glad somehow, you know, things reveal themselves with time, and you sometimes see it's a blessing in disguise.
After 3 years of loss of appetite in the dating game... Recently, things have changed. It was a good rest; I learnt many things about myself in the process, found my happiness and confidence without the need of assurance from anyone, especially men. I can safely say, they still do stir my emotions but I can better control them and also kick the asses aside. Why tolerate men whom do not respect you, they do not deserve us!
A big campaign at work is just over. The people I work closely with recently have became quite anal, always making things difficult and wasting time. Someone is testing my patience again. I need to 打小人。 I found this and it's pretty amusing. Thanks to my team members, they made my life much easier. But there's something I don't understand, why do we always need to be tactful and make them happy when they are wrong??? Just reject them, say "NO"... Is it British culture to be tactful even when its not time to be!? Geez, if so, that surely needs a change. Learn from the Chinese, swear at them!! LOL.
I finally caught up with the friend who treated me like her spouse! Remember the one I was talking about, I almost cut off ties with her. Someone inspired me, she/he said we shouldn't let small things ruin a true friendship. I'm not sure if I can call these small but anyhow I wasn't really bothered to be honest. Things always take two hands to clap, if she's willing to change her attitude, I should give her a chance? I still never felt things have changed, I think its all in her mind.
When I get older, I tend to try things I didn't use to like again. I went to KBox, I never like singing and still don't, but things are fun when you do it with friends. I used to hate earth colors but my clothes, shoes and nails are turning brown... So give it a go, you never know, you might just like something you used to detest.
I'm once again back listening to UK Radio and they still make me giggle. Oh boy, how I miss the English accent!
It has been one year!!! Someone I thought I liked a year ago has now diminished, and sometimes I even forget what he's called. Geez, memory ;) I am glad somehow, you know, things reveal themselves with time, and you sometimes see it's a blessing in disguise.
After 3 years of loss of appetite in the dating game... Recently, things have changed. It was a good rest; I learnt many things about myself in the process, found my happiness and confidence without the need of assurance from anyone, especially men. I can safely say, they still do stir my emotions but I can better control them and also kick the asses aside. Why tolerate men whom do not respect you, they do not deserve us!
A big campaign at work is just over. The people I work closely with recently have became quite anal, always making things difficult and wasting time. Someone is testing my patience again. I need to 打小人。 I found this and it's pretty amusing. Thanks to my team members, they made my life much easier. But there's something I don't understand, why do we always need to be tactful and make them happy when they are wrong??? Just reject them, say "NO"... Is it British culture to be tactful even when its not time to be!? Geez, if so, that surely needs a change. Learn from the Chinese, swear at them!! LOL.
I finally caught up with the friend who treated me like her spouse! Remember the one I was talking about, I almost cut off ties with her. Someone inspired me, she/he said we shouldn't let small things ruin a true friendship. I'm not sure if I can call these small but anyhow I wasn't really bothered to be honest. Things always take two hands to clap, if she's willing to change her attitude, I should give her a chance? I still never felt things have changed, I think its all in her mind.
When I get older, I tend to try things I didn't use to like again. I went to KBox, I never like singing and still don't, but things are fun when you do it with friends. I used to hate earth colors but my clothes, shoes and nails are turning brown... So give it a go, you never know, you might just like something you used to detest.
I'm once again back listening to UK Radio and they still make me giggle. Oh boy, how I miss the English accent!
12.9.11
Turning 30 in 38623 minutes
As I write this, most of my closest friends have turned 30... I am almost the last. And I thought I'd like to re-live my memories as I count the days to the new phase of my life.
I have loved and hated.
I have almost drowned, crashed and died.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
I have severed ties and also rekindled them.
I have let go of toxic relationships.
I have learnt to cherish,
I have found hope and lost it once again.
I have survived my darkest days.
I have found myself, and continue to discover more.
I have lied, cheated and been dishonest.
I have done good to reap karma.
I have travelled alone, with friends or family.
I have been loved.
I have friends I thank God for.
I have had great bosses and also shitty ones.
I have people whom came into my life as my guardian angels or bad asses, both I learnt many things from.
I have learnt and never stop learning.
I have done myself proud, my parents proud and occasionally those whom I meant something to.
I have had days I was ashamed, disgraced or humiliated.
I have done things I regretted, and hopefully not anymore.
I have succeeded and failed.
I have my courageous days and times I just want to shrink my head back in the shell.
I have been lucky, and also many times unlucky.
I have many fond memories of those dear to my heart but whom have left.
I have many unanswered wishes and endless faith.
I think I could go on and on.... I have no idea why I am writing this, but suddenly it just came to me. I want to share with you guys that life is all about balance. There's always good and bad, there's always up and down. We can pick ourselves up if you want to, we can always see the positive side of things if you want to. There's a lot of things within our control if you want to take control of it. That includes saving our planet. There's no doubt there are bad times, there's also no doubt there are people whom want to make others' lives miserable. We can find happiness within ourselves, and we don't need it to come from others, to reassure us. I hope all of you find contentment in the simple things in life, because in fact we do not need much to be happy.
I have loved and hated.
I have almost drowned, crashed and died.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
I have severed ties and also rekindled them.
I have let go of toxic relationships.
I have learnt to cherish,
I have found hope and lost it once again.
I have survived my darkest days.
I have found myself, and continue to discover more.
I have lied, cheated and been dishonest.
I have done good to reap karma.
I have travelled alone, with friends or family.
I have been loved.
I have friends I thank God for.
I have had great bosses and also shitty ones.
I have people whom came into my life as my guardian angels or bad asses, both I learnt many things from.
I have learnt and never stop learning.
I have done myself proud, my parents proud and occasionally those whom I meant something to.
I have had days I was ashamed, disgraced or humiliated.
I have done things I regretted, and hopefully not anymore.
I have succeeded and failed.
I have my courageous days and times I just want to shrink my head back in the shell.
I have been lucky, and also many times unlucky.
I have many fond memories of those dear to my heart but whom have left.
I have many unanswered wishes and endless faith.
I think I could go on and on.... I have no idea why I am writing this, but suddenly it just came to me. I want to share with you guys that life is all about balance. There's always good and bad, there's always up and down. We can pick ourselves up if you want to, we can always see the positive side of things if you want to. There's a lot of things within our control if you want to take control of it. That includes saving our planet. There's no doubt there are bad times, there's also no doubt there are people whom want to make others' lives miserable. We can find happiness within ourselves, and we don't need it to come from others, to reassure us. I hope all of you find contentment in the simple things in life, because in fact we do not need much to be happy.
5.9.11
It's time to decide... uugghhh
I have a problem.
I am a neurotic perfectionist with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Well this is not scientifically proven, but again it's my anxiety at work. I hate having to make a decision, like a final one out of so many choices. Too many choices is NOT a good thing, it makes me anxious, stressed and forces the perfectionism in me to surface. Read this article. You will agree that sometimes less is more. When you have less choices, it's very easy to filter, and you would reach a decision in a much shorter time. Do you sometimes shopped for hours and ended up with nothing? I do - quite a couple of times, at a book sale, mega sale, bookstore or even for clothings. I just gave up choosing.
Consumerism gives us far too many choices... When you want to buy something, how do you decide on a brand? Hearsay, reviews or advertising? Advertising is the perfect example of marketing gimmicks. You make something look good so people buy it. Some people hate the TV because they feel advertising is bullsh*t, the TV programmes distort people's perception of things and the fairy tales idealize life. Don't you agree, they make you believe in love at first sight, or the hero always win ultimately and the bad people always have retribution? And do these happen in real life? Sometimes they do, only sometimes.
A good example is I recently booked my hotel for Chiang Mai. Initially even before I got my flight, I had in mind just 2 places I really would like to stay. One is very affordable while the other is not. I had set my mind on dividing time between the two, but realised later the hassle might not be worth it. Then when I began a search, there are over 200 choices on Agoda, and I believe even more when there are those whom do not have online presence. I then shortlisted my favourites (forgotten about my initial choices) but as time went by, the popular ones got fully booked and I just had to make a decision quick. I detest it. I hate doing something under pressure. But I booked it, one of my preferred choices but not the ideal. Then I became obsessed about my decision. "Did I make the right choice?" "What if I found somewhere even better and cheaper?" "What if the reviews aren't true?" So many unnecessary question marks in my head. I had a urge to look again even though I had already paid for my booking. I'm insane. Tell me, am I not? One should learn to let go, "Just let it go... and accept it", I remind myself. It might not be what someone else has described in their review but it will be my own experience and I can make it just as good as I would like it!
To end this off, I want to share with you a wise quote from the above site - "The freedom to make choices brings the responsibility to live with the consequences." (copyrighted to Psychology Today)
And now I shall wash my hands off it, force my brain to shut off and look forward to the holiday in October~
I am a neurotic perfectionist with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Well this is not scientifically proven, but again it's my anxiety at work. I hate having to make a decision, like a final one out of so many choices. Too many choices is NOT a good thing, it makes me anxious, stressed and forces the perfectionism in me to surface. Read this article. You will agree that sometimes less is more. When you have less choices, it's very easy to filter, and you would reach a decision in a much shorter time. Do you sometimes shopped for hours and ended up with nothing? I do - quite a couple of times, at a book sale, mega sale, bookstore or even for clothings. I just gave up choosing.
Consumerism gives us far too many choices... When you want to buy something, how do you decide on a brand? Hearsay, reviews or advertising? Advertising is the perfect example of marketing gimmicks. You make something look good so people buy it. Some people hate the TV because they feel advertising is bullsh*t, the TV programmes distort people's perception of things and the fairy tales idealize life. Don't you agree, they make you believe in love at first sight, or the hero always win ultimately and the bad people always have retribution? And do these happen in real life? Sometimes they do, only sometimes.
A good example is I recently booked my hotel for Chiang Mai. Initially even before I got my flight, I had in mind just 2 places I really would like to stay. One is very affordable while the other is not. I had set my mind on dividing time between the two, but realised later the hassle might not be worth it. Then when I began a search, there are over 200 choices on Agoda, and I believe even more when there are those whom do not have online presence. I then shortlisted my favourites (forgotten about my initial choices) but as time went by, the popular ones got fully booked and I just had to make a decision quick. I detest it. I hate doing something under pressure. But I booked it, one of my preferred choices but not the ideal. Then I became obsessed about my decision. "Did I make the right choice?" "What if I found somewhere even better and cheaper?" "What if the reviews aren't true?" So many unnecessary question marks in my head. I had a urge to look again even though I had already paid for my booking. I'm insane. Tell me, am I not? One should learn to let go, "Just let it go... and accept it", I remind myself. It might not be what someone else has described in their review but it will be my own experience and I can make it just as good as I would like it!
To end this off, I want to share with you a wise quote from the above site - "The freedom to make choices brings the responsibility to live with the consequences." (copyrighted to Psychology Today)
And now I shall wash my hands off it, force my brain to shut off and look forward to the holiday in October~
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