Do you know why too??

I just happened to read an old classmate's blog and he was relating how he realised why his past relationship had gone wrong... why was it over... only after 2 years!! I feel sad for him, I do... perhaps I do sympathize with him. Maybe I also feel for myself suddenly after reading his experience. I guess you never know when you are totally over that person (whom has hurt you) until one day.

One fine day, when you notice the sun is still shining, you're glad that you're alive. You appreciate yourself and doesn't carry anymore sad or hurt feelings. You smile and laugh, and never felt that you have loved yourself more than any time in your life... Is that how it is supposed to be???

I am waiting for that day I will find the reason too. That "WHY" that my friend has mentioned... and then I know that there is this someone still out there for me, patiently waiting to love me =)

Wishy washy

We have a new addition to the household... and my mum is dreadful of changes. In fact, she is so wary that I am going to do her job now. Parents, they are sooooo.... traditional and afraid to make changes to their routine. You could probably imagine your elderly parents or grandparents being like this.

But I welcome this new washing machine, in fact I think we just needed one. I can't imagine my mum have been doing the washing with her poor hands for years... I did that in London for a couple of months when I had to live without one in a flat. So incredible, don't you think but I survived. My sister got it at a discounted price, which might be a reason why it acted up all so weird during the spinning process... it get agitated like a cat whom has its tail stepped!

Really!! It made a whole lot of noise, trembled like someone having fits... in fact, it jumped about. My parents got so fed up with it that now I just have to do the washing without a spin.

A letter from faraway

I love writing, and it also shows how much I appreciate receiving mails... not the emails, I mean real letters. I received one today from faraway, it is written very nicely. Affectionate, sweet and caring... How can I not be melted away ;)

Ministry of Sound - SG

Wow, first time going to Ministry of Sound in Singapore... think I did go to one held at Expo some years back. But now, we have our own club and it's massive. It's comparable to our local Zouk, now I wonder if Zouk can survive with the fact that MOS is situated at a much more accessible location and charges a cheaper admission fee!!!

I got in free with an event pass, had a couple of mates with me. The event was okay, too crowded to really be a part of it and it was ending just as I was there. So we left and sneaked out for a nice "supper", I had this Oreo cheesecake (soooooo good) at TCC (Angela's favourite hangout), caught up with some people at Crazy Elephant, got tempted to play pool but didn't want to show off my embarrassing skill. LOL. Though I really want to pick up on that.

When we finally went back to MOS after 11, the music was fabulous... RnB section was cool as well. Well furnished, only thing is you tend to get tripped very easily, too dark and too many steps around. Crowd was good, music was better, so everyone had a wonderful time dancing...

Finally ended our night at 2am, only got home at 3.20am, and much needed a shower from all the smoke and alcohol smell... woke up today with curls - I like it.

Am I one of the normal women or the abnormal?

I just realized one thing. One of my buddies is obsessed with or craving for the attention from men, especially the unavailable or the wrong types. She flirts with them and seems very happy to be able to be their focus even for a minute or two. Has it something to do with self-esteem or ego??

I don't understand. I don't get such attention and don't yearn to have it from men whom are totally strangers or even acquaintances. I feel happier having more intelligent conversation than feeling proud that someone is physically attracted to me. All men do like a beautiful face, that is true, but how long can that physical attraction last, I really wonder...

Looking at the others within our group, none of us are attention-seekers. Perhaps we are a little more reserved, sometimes shy... I am pretty certain the rest of us only enjoy the attention from the right guy, someone who is sincere, obviously attracted to and into us.

Tell me which is more normal... or perhaps there are 2 kinds of women in this world...

Eating the oily, unhealthy singaporean food

Ahhhh... can't say I didn't miss the food here, Europe and UK really have bad Asian food or well there are a couple of good ones, damn it, just remember I missed the Hong Kong duck rice again! SHIT!!

Anyway, since I am back... I have the pleasure of eating quite a few again. Char siew rice, wanton mee, laksa, curry chicken, satay, otah, roti prata, nasi padang, prawn mee, MOS burger (not local specialty but I miss such healthy fast food)... Out of all these, I guess MOS burger is still the healthier option. I feel soooooooo guilty abandoning all my healthy diet regime when I am back. But soon enough when I get enough of these, I shall start my healthy lifestyle again ;)

I feel like I need to take up a class or some kind of activity soon...

Energized, better than the Energizer

One week after my arrival, I finally see an improvement in my sleeping routine. I still sleep late, but at least I am waking up earlier each day. I have to say my return hasn't been affecting me negatively... which is good. I am not so used to Singapore lifestyle but my motivation and determination are still there. I have already started applying for jobs from the second day, planning to return for more traveling next year (probably), doing a bit of financial planning, catching up with friends, looking out to sign a new mobile plan and perhaps a new phone, going clubbing again and also expecting a visitor to Singapore for my next birthday, wow... isn't life more exciting than before!!

still

... jet lagged after a week.... sleeping at 3am, waking up at 1 or 2pm... how blissful eh!

Writing in Singapore

Oh yes, I am home. Not sure if I am very happy about this change yet, but I do feel comfortable again. Unlike the previous time I was back, I felt lost and an urge to return... Perhaps this time, a lot of arrangements have been made that it favours my stay here. Yes, I am going to add "at least for a while"....

It was last Tuesday I arrived, I still couldn't believe my feet are now back on the Singapore soil... And London, Germany, everything else only felt like a dream. A long dream where I love to be caught in it, and now I'm always trying to remember them. The only thing I still can't stand about living here is its humidity... and also the crowd. I am beginning to dislike living in a highly populated city, especially in such a small place.

On Friday, we Fab 4 had our usual gathering at a chalet. It was lovely to see everyone else again, had our very belated Christmas exchange with a delicious chocolate reunion cake (chosen and bought by me)... ahhhhh.... and a long night catching up and gossiping. The next two days, we invited lots of old friends over to join us in the BBQ. It was great and silly fun playing games, eating, watching DVDs and catching up since the last time I saw them was probably 10 months or more ago.

On Sunday, we had an hour practising our long-lost-touch cycling skill. It was such a warm nice feeling to be able to do that in nice sunny weather, stopping for a sea-breeze break at the breakwater, looking at dog owners playing with their pets, thanking Singapore to be surrounded by the waters (so we can have some beaches, though not the nicest and cleanest). Oh, and I can cycle better okay... except for the time when some great looking guys are walking towards me I have that tendency to crash!

Loveliest time since I am back, thanks to the girls.... that we have organised such a wonderful party!

Even though I am back here, my heart is still yearning to find the ultimate home, someone please take me away :)))))))))))))))))))))))

I feel lucky

I had the chance to spend a little afternoon in an open farm in England... how nice is that? I get to feed the animals, snapped some pictures, laughed at myself throwing the food onto the poor animals... having my hands licked when they nibbled the bits from my palm. Oh lovely...

It was snowing heavily after I arrived shortly in Doncaster... Walking among the falling snow didn't make me cold, instead it has given me such a warm fuzzy feeling inside which makes me missing it all the time. The first time it really snowed like pouring rain, and I am walking in the snow shower... Can't stop smiling;)

For once in the UK (besides all the travelling I did alone or with tour), I am beginning to enjoy it here.

No better time than this!

My happiest, happiest, happiest.... day in London was yesterday till today. It was the best moment in 2006, so far none of the days this year has really been meaningful, only sad most of the part. But the last 24 hours round the clock, I found myself always smiling in good company, something I never have expected and am really glad to have it. A brief 24 hours has really a strong impact on my life... For the first time ever, I witnessed snow in London, and it happened twice during this day, I felt very lucky and really excited like a kid. I looked at the falling snow, counted my blessing... I have good companionship bundled with good sense of humour, lots of food, self-pampering bath plus facial mask treatment from LUSH and an amazingly pleasant time, except for the part that first time wearing my new boots is such a torture. I can't thank enough for blessing me with a happy ending towards the end of my stay in London :))))