Do I have so much that you do not know?

100 things about me you may not already know...
I'm just a girl who ____________ (every now and then <-- don't apply to me so much). Spare me, but you know you're going to read a lot of 'crap', things that are obviously evident... but hey, there might me some secrets still :)
(another chain, this time from Angela)

1. likes pink
2. likes men (especially the ones whom can cook)
3. likes writing
4. likes potatoes
5. likes new experience
6. dislikes sweating
7. dislikes violence
8. dislikes dish-washing
9. dislikes routine
10. dislikes politics
11. loves traveling
12. loves cold weather
13. loves red wine
14. loves languages
15. loves mum's cooking
16. hates money
17. hates people who use "F" word too often
18. hates women abuser
19. hates fighting
20. hates taking passport photo
21. does cry
22. does read newspaper
23. does my laundry
24. does remember (e.g. names, facts, dates) well
25. does not forget easily
26. doesn't shop as much
27. doesn't like "ex-girlfriends"
28. doesn't follow the rule
29. doesn't smoke
30. doesn't fancy crowded places (except big events or concerts)
31. wants to be a global citizen
32. wants "maggie" hair
33. wants more in life than wealth and fame
34. wants to move out of Singapore (in long-termed future)
35. wants to take pilates again
36. needs to drink more water
37. needs grow a little taller
38. needs a job
39. needs to see more of the world
40. needs to let go of the past
41. enjoys sunshine
42. enjoys walking
43. enjoys ironing
44. enjoys having a good laugh
45. enjoys company
46. tries to practise my German
47. tries to have a career switch
48. tries learning italian (sigh!)
49. tries to forgive
50. tries to save money (for 34. and 39.)
51. misses Europe
52. misses my London's housemates and cat
53. misses hearing British accent
54. misses the real nature (e.g. mountains, highlands, beaches)
55. misses seeing herd, herd and herd of sheeps
56. falls in love
57. falls for sincerity
58. falls for sweet-talking (gets me to 95.)
59. falls asleep fast
60. falls back on myself
61. can swim
62. can sew
63. can cook (yes, I think can make it lah)
64. can speak singlish (if necessary)
65. can design
66. cannot drive
67. cannot fly
68. cannot fake British accent
69. cannot stand 4 millions population in a small island of 692 sq km
70. cannot hurt someone without hurting myself
71. feels emotional
72. feels optimistic
73. feels down
74. feels breathless
75. feels old (no matter how many people say "you're still young")
76. wonders why poverty exists when there's money printing
77. wonders why rich people never get sick of being wealthy
78. wonders why Britney got married
79. wonders why the world is not as one (i.e. free air tickets)
80. wonders what is true love
81. thinks a lot about other people
82. thinks looks are deceiving
83. thinks pretty shoes suck
84. thinks Ewan McGregor is sexy
85. thinks being a middle child is cool
86. pretends to forget
87. pretends to hate
88. pretends to be geeky (does plastic frames work;) )
89. pretends to be young to have Happy Meals
90. pretends to be busy
91. gets PMS
92. gets drunk easily with beer
93. gets spots
94. gets a little fussy
95. gets wiser
96. has never sprained an ankle
97. has 5 email accounts
98. has fallen in love twice
99. has Fabulous 4 or maybe 5 (close friends)
100. has Tommy

Famous toys

Did you happen to read the news that an anonymous sex toys shop in Germany has named vibrators after their German football players?? It was a little amusing (sorry but what kind of marketing strategy is this!!)... and it just becomes gross when you think of it. How could they do that?? Imagine naming them after celebrities too, it's just so offensive! You can really see how much they are promoting World Cup in Germany ;)

Other side of the world

When I come to think of it, that not-so-faraway future, I see my friends leaving one after another... My three best mates are all going away to pursue their dreams. Actually one is in London now having followed my footsteps, I am glad it is all working out for her and helping her to face life's very often harsh reality. In about 2 months, another is also leaving for Abu Dhabi for work purpose. That is a big decision but with her restless nature and being constantly on the move for past few years, it can be just another "long holiday" for her. Our third friend is leaving to pursue her 4 years of undergraduate studies in the USA, not surprised at this one as she has been longing to go further in her studies for some time. Now she is finally able to do so, somehow I share part of her joy. I get such mixed feelings knowing my closest friends are soon going away but I do know its all inevitable part of life. We have our dreams, our goals. Talking about my past 2 years, I could also imagine when one of them was left alone in Singapore while the rest of us are out there - somewhere around the globe. Now, my turn being back in Singapore, I shall have a taste of that... I'm not too worried, I know we'll always be a close-knit group despite that distance and someday we are going to have a fabulous reunion celebration!

I'm going to take my life as it comes, how bad can that be - as long as I'm happy, wherever I am, wherever it is...

Can someone buy me an alarm??

I look at the scratches on my hand, it reminds me of the cat fight the other night. My sister went nuts when she lost her temper, she scratches like a cat. So I am wounded. I have to admit it wasn't the best of my mood plus she has a really really really bad temper, so there was a short circuit. Indeed, a silly sibling argument, I would have never fought with her unless she gets really aggressive and hit me. Come on, we are in our mid-20s, I am tired of these, but she isn't. Sometimes I just wish she grows out of this - stop being an abuser!

That very day, I got an email... someone whom I have greatly loved is like a total stranger now. Or even worse than a stranger. I don't know whether that has affected me and led to the cat fight... perhaps subconsciously. It has been 4 months!! Why am I still stuck in that phase, when can I finally move on? My friend once told me I can't force myself to get over something within a time frame, I thought I could but I can't. Wounds heal with time, but how long is it going to take? Finally a friend gave me a wake-up call, he said," IT IS REALLY TIME TO FORGET ABOUT IT, TRIX!!" At that instant, I felt something.

I know I will... soon enough!

Hippy for The Hippies!!

The Hippies won!!!!! Yes they did, one million US dollars in Amazing Race 9. It's so much fun watching them, especially when they were in Japan - Tyler can speak fluent Japanese, so impressed. BJ and Tyler!!! They have got such a happy-go-lucky attitude that I think it makes everyone envious of. But of course perhaps the producers were showing their best moments;) I still recall them having a hard time swallowing those fried crickets in Thailand. But they made it!!

These hippies do remind me of (didn't know why the last image became a pool of shit, naughty people!):

Hey, I played this game before when I was young... I'm always "dale".

il cibo da I'Italia

01 30 in the early morning, I just finished browsing Jamie Oliver's latest publication - Jamie's Italy... I can't deny that it has made my stomach growling with every chapter I finished. Not good for a woman whom wants to keep slim and not have weird eating habits at wee hours. I love this book, I'm sure I will try to get his book collection once I have enough space and money too (yes, probably a big book shelf and got myself a whole set of spices and kitchen equipment as well). Food has increasingly become an important part of my life ever since the day I started doing my own meals and living out on my own. And I have to admit I did get more health conscious, eat a lot more salads and fruits, appreciate pasta more (not like our Asian instant noodles anymore), and of course begin to differentiate quality and lousy food. I love good food, and good wine. This book about Italy's food culture is impetuous... That's the kind of word I will use to describe it. Strong emotions about food, so much passion in them. It provides great insights, and having been to Italy myself, I am yearning for another time to taste the fantastic cooking =) When, when, when....???

it is from the trivial we find significant comfort in our life -- potatoe

Just a list of random words, names, places, etc that reminds me of my days in UK/Europe...

Pretzels baked with cheese. Felix. Old witch. Christmas market. Sheeps. Green frog. Snow shower. Summer. Autumn. Wise guys. Becks Lemon. The dark mirror. Adidas. Nazi. Grey wild rabbits. German language course. Ducks feeding. Rum ball. DVDs. Hot bath. Accessorize. Marks & Spencer. H&M. Lush! Thai curries. Carrot cake. Der Harz. Emma. Richard. My baby, Tommy. Edinburgh. Nature. Ireland. Guinness. Wild in Scotland. Nakis. Rubber boots. Nellie. Italy. Venice. Masks parade. Angela. Ryan air. Bahn. Marcus. Riyaad. Phantom of the Opera. Misato. Four seasons duck rice. River Rhine. Thomas. Sheng Liang. Chrispin. Eurotunnel. Ferry. York. Ghostwalk. Squirrels. Loch ness. Coral beach. Winter. Gluehwein. Nils. Bedtime donald duck comics. Ananas. Housemates. Ealing Broadway. British farm. Taschen. Latte. Flea market. Maoz falafel. Gaudi. Swedish. BCN Backpacker. Popeye. Lindt chocolate. Musical box. Kinder Surprise. Homework. Design. St Christopher's Inn. Mueller drinks. My heart pillow. Netto. Morrisons. Cherry brandy. My easter bunny, Anna. Sale. Sisley. Pizza. Tomato soup. Mensa. MSN. Tugba. Pig-faced snow. Snowman. Bicycle hunting. Brokeback mountain. Alex & Ian. British airway. Glamour. Cosmopolitan. Sudoku. Metro. London underground. Oyster. Crazy Glyn. Harrods. Little James. Weetabix. Kensington. Covent Garden. George. Coldplay concert. Whittard. Orange. Soho. Potatoes.

Bist du sicher??? Ist er der gleiche Mann den ich kenne?

"Hmmmmmm..............."

After a few months... I picked up that little courage today to speak to him. It wasn't like he's an enemy or something but we had a misunderstanding some time ago. I recalled the last time he was still very bitter, but it was something minor and I figure that our 5 years friendship isn't going to drown just because of an oil spill... (what a metaphor :S)

Anyhow, I couldn't believe it... we had a relaxed conversation... he is not bitter anymore. I don't know what changed it, perhaps something in his life has already "touched" him. He shared some of his happy events with me, I felt quite honoured in fact and could actually feel for him and his family.

Maybe someday we will meet again... soon ;)

Der Sandstrand

*I have a very chill out day at the beach (east coast) with my mate this afternoon... Laying on a towel, small enough to sit two bums... with a mini radio... a book in the hand... my experimental fish-eyed camera... oreo cookies, water... the sun is shining and not glaring... the playful weather teasing us with a few drops of rain now and then... the breeze so soothing that makes one sleepy... Just like a picnic. I particularly enjoy it when its not crowded. On a tuesday, you see students, couples, friends, people whom come alone to have a dip or swim or walking their dogs, army troops jogging... No tents pitched every 2 metres away, no big families having noisy BBQs... And the color of the sea, just like this*

Polling day in Singapore

It is the first time (so green!!) I get to vote... A little ignorant (but exciting) of what's going on, especially since not being here for over the last 1.5 year, not a very good excuse, but more that I am not so much into politics. I live in the east, so in my area I have to make a vote. Four persons out of five in my family are voting, my poor little sister is underaged to make her say. Got dragged out of bed this morning by mum to get to the polling centre, I soon realized I have an important decision to make - every vote counts, isn't it! On the TV now, the results are going to reveal in the next few hours... I am excited to see who's going to be in-charge of the area I am living in, as it has been under the same party for a while.

Are they going to stay, are we going to have major improvements in future, is there more things going to be done for our neighbourhood...


p/s: AAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaahh just saw a SABARU advertisement on TV, totally in German, how cool... I need to try harder to understand conversational german!!! Actually I just heard it in French and italian too! Loaned an italian phrase book to start "some fun learning" ;)

A mess outta a mess

That bubble burst...

I am prepared for the worst, so it didn't upset me too much. After all I have been through, what can a small rejection do to me.. Answer is "nothing". My dream job is perhaps not the job for me, maybe not now, maybe for forever... However, I am certain life has a lot to offer to me, I am still waiting to be guided into the right direction. Actually I am driving my own direction... I need more than just keeping fingers crossed, I need to keep myself focused and persevere and some luck, please!