Farewell u lousy MAC, again I might miss u

I'm always grumbling about the OS 9.1, the lousy machine which doesn't even support MSN, opening more than 5 applications and crashing all the time. But I'll miss my 21" monitor. Even its an old G3 with unknown sources where the softwares came from, and a very faulty mouse that runs in the opposite direction, I've been using it for months. I get frustrated with it sometimes, kicked it sometimes. Sigh... poor mac, its time for me to leave you.

It's my final day at work. I was thrilled, the star is shining on me, I got the job offer for the next 5 months. That's something. I've done what I could at work, even though I could have done better. You guys should understand that feeling when you are leaving. I thought I'm already nice enough to try to complete them, or well, almost.

Boss announced he was giving me a treat. That means the whole company is going to enjoy the entitlement as well. We went to a Thai Restaurant, Thanying Restaurant. Menu was thrown to me, and I was the boss! I didn't do a fabulous job on the orders I guess, still it was filling! Far too much, in fact.

The moment I came back from lunch, someone asked for me. I received half a dozen of PINK ROSES and a furry puppy. That's a surprise indeed, I read the card. From Damien, Jeffrey, Lee Ann & Peiling. 3 of them are my ex-colleagues (well we still lunch together, being 2 buildings away). I was moved, I never received a BOUQUET of roses!! Let's not mention those random ONE ROSE that we could get anytime.

I didn't realise my leaving from the Company has brought me surprises and nice ones. I'm starting work next month (which is next week), just a door away from where I was. So it's not that bad really!! And I guess I do felt appreciated. Awww...

Randomness IX

It's not surprising sometimes how bad luck I can get...

It's my second time buying newspaper on rainy days just to get me to my office drier. I'm not learning the mistake. Somehow I could have brought an umbrella, my instincts said so. I just didn't follow it. Serves me right eh! When I knew I was stuck in the rain, no one could believe how glad I felt. Being in the office is a nightmare compared to standing my time away at the train station. I stood for 20 minutes but the rain is not getting any lighter, so there it goes again... Buy a paper!! Ooo, just realised its 80 cents (instead of 60) now.

STUCK ON YOU. I went for the show, thanks for the free tix! Nice comedy, I thought I needed one after the stress at work. Hell did I not know that I had an empy wallet after lunch!! Before I left the office, god knows I left my bunch of keys back home! Ohh... man. Fortunately I managed to get a spare key in the office to lock it up, arghh.. being the last to leave. There goes without saying I'd be getting home at midnight with no keys. I was at the movie with my sister. I couldn't believe she forgot her keys as well... Phew, at least she solved my empty wallet problem!

Somehow Bob Tenor (Matt Damon) looks like my ex-boss, Richard, or at least I find him so. He's such a sweetie in the film!

Now here comes the most exciting part of the whole story. We (me and my sis) were being followed by a suspicious man last night. Pervert?! Robber?? Rapist!? Arghh... Here's how the story goes:

We alighted from a cab, a building away from our flat. We went passed the building, that man was walking by. Suddenly he changed his course of direction and walked behind us. It made us realised it as he was walking far much slower on purpose, almost trailing. Aware of an unidentified man following us, we hopped faster along the way and reached the lift lobby. He came along, stopped when we did. The lift opened, I didn't go in. Neither did he.

My sister and I were staring at him, asking him to step in first. He's a fat short Malay guy in his 30s. There was the evilness in his eyes, he wanted to snatch or attack us?!! It was on his face. I find him looking more like a robber. I wasn't afraid yet, but was thinking if he should attack, should I

1. take my phone out and dial 999?
2. take off my heels and run?
3. take my heels and hit him in the eye?

He didn't come into the lift with us after we prompted him. Maybe now he knows that we are not easy preys!! Damn pervert.

Give me a heart of gold

If heart is made of gold
there won't be a day it rusts

If heart is hard as gold
you won't be there to see it break

If heart is precious like gold
everyone will learn cherish it

My lord, God has sent to me
A heart soft like shell
Fallen and full of stitches

It pains to see you there
Standing and smiling at me
You know I miss U so

If God can give my heart a coat of paint
I wish it will be gold
I wish U will be there

Wandering with lust

Wan·der·lust
n. A very strong or irresistible impulse to travel.

[German : wandern, to wander (from Middle High German) + Lust, desire (from Middle High German, from Old High German.]

When I first heard the word from a friend, I was thinking,"Wandering around with lust?? How horrible!!" But Griffin is right about me, I have that impulse inside me all the time. Sometimes though it subsided, it was never gone. He made a point that I myself never realised at all. He said over the time we spoke, he felt that I was trapped in a place I could never blossom and my heart was somewhere else. He can be funny. He told me I left my shoes in london. He thinks I could be happier with the new change. And I believe so.

My 3rd uncle

My mum has a huge family, with 6 brothers and 5 sisters. Its Chinese New Year again, a rare time to see many of them get together.

My 3rd uncle, someone I always find him isolated; in a way, I pity him sometimes I don't know why. Maybe it's because he's divorced, unemployed, and living alone. I wonder if he enjoys his bachelor life. He has 2 daughters, now whom are living by themselves, I'm doubtful they have a close relationship. His wife doesn't speak to him anymore, but they do come by for the new year reunion (probably at different timing). He was telling my mum about migrating to Australia... My mum as usual so bad in her geography, began to speak of me leaving for London. Oh!! So she already got my hint, is she taking it serious now!! My mum thinks all these western countries are united, or maybe about the same. I was explaining to her the locations, never much mention about my own intention. My uncle did agree it's a wonderful idea, he has the perception we can do much better outside Singapore. I'm not convinced myself, but yes, in Singapore a paper qualification counts more than anything else.

In the train, I was witnessing an old man screaming, shouting and swearing at her wife. A boorish couple. I detest it a lot when a man is disrespectful to a woman, especially his wife! He totally sounded like a dork doing that in the public, making a scene.

Grammy Cabby Award

It was 12 30am. I flagged for a cab, having only merely $12 dollars left. I was quite certain it wasn't enough with the midnight charge. I sat in, the driver greeted me and wished me well for the Chinese New Year before I told him. He assured me it should be sufficient, though I had cards with me he (a part-time driver) didn't know how to handle card transactions. We went ahead, it was actually cool post-rain weather, me riding in the yellow CityCab (did I remember wrongly I hope not). We were on the ECP when I started to keep my eyes on the jumping meter. At the exit to Tampines (my town), it was 5 cents to $12, damn I knew it would have exceeded. I dug my wallet for everything I could possibly use to pay and came up with $12.30. Pretty nice number eh! The driver drove me right below my flat, it came up to $14.90. I was figuring if we could probably try the card method when he said,"Don't worry about using NETS, pay me whatever you have." I was so moved, he even did that with a smile. Genuine smile. Before I got off, I was full of "thank you"(s) and he was still wishing me well and saying good night!

That's my luck. I should be lucky this year. ; )

CNY eve, nerr..vous me

Its half-day work today, 4 hours of the usual 8.

Manager was announcing we can leave at 1pm today, provided we came in at 9am and get the work done. I couldn't care less, my usual day starts at 10.30am. So there I am, he's an arrrse...hole anyway, why should I heed! The most horrifying thing I seen this morning must be his face - black face. No, I'm not lying. Black. Yes. Charcoal.

I went over to mr. idol's office for a discussion about the job. Right now, it sounds really positive I might get it. *fingers crossed* He's asking me to speak to him again next week about the final decision from the company. Truthfully, I'd like to get a chance to work under him; but in all honesty, if it doesn't work out, bumming around and organizing my big trip sound perfect as well.

I guess I was a little nervous in his office, or maybe my pain in the shoulder is subconsciously affecting my nervous system! I haven't had an idea why I kept talking off the topic! Argh. It's still aching, god's sake, I want a painless chinese new year!!

To the Chinese especially
Happy Chinese New Year

To everyone
Welcome to the Year of Monkey 2004

May all of you have a prosperous year ahead!!!

6 men 1 woman

We finally did it. Uummmmm, I mean the booze with John. He is returning to Hong Kong today. I arrived pretty late due to an appointment with Angela down at Metro, as the booze was beginning at 8pm.

Elliot (John's friend) was there. He has a very cute skinny frame. Cubby, Damien, Nick, Jeffrey and me (ex-colleagues). And John. That makes it seven. I suddenly realised I was the only woman, it was still pretty comfortable as we did hang out drinking in the past. I had only a bottle of Heineken to last my hour. I didn't stay long as I freaking slept at 4am the night before. Felt horrible. It was a small and warm group catching up about gossips in our offices, about my traveling plans again, their life stories. Interestingly, I did talk to almost everyone that evening. I have never spoken to Elliot the last couple of boozing sessions, but somehow London became a common topic... Damien, Jeffrey and Nick were as usual joking over the mugs of beer, John did ask about the Fab 4. Of course we are still sticking together!!

It's a pity I didn't warm my bum enough on the chair, however it was still an awesome night~~~

Randomness VIII

Maybe I can make a book out of this "trixilitus randomness series"...

Mr. Yankee came on MSN today, surprisingly he spoke more to me.

Yankee says: well, when i first saw you...i was really shocked!
Yankee says: i never guessed you were so beautiful and cute
Yankee says: cos i never met you in person
Me: lol
Yankee says: then I got kind of nervous

He said he actually came to Singapore just to meet up with me (on the way home). I have not spoken to him regularly ever, sometimes it makes me wonder why he came. Then again, he has friends here. So sweet of someone to say that really, even though most of the time I wouldn't take their words for it.

The holidaymaker scheme!! I found a mate who is doing that, exactly the same as me. Of course I'm thrilled, however, coming back to think about it, I still am depending on myself. This guy, Song, an ex-colleague, is leaving in a month's time for London. I can't wait to find someone I can trust to share a flat with, a bit too early for me, my stupid brain is as anxious like always. These two days, I've been speaking to him about it. Both of us are so... so... so... excited about the future in UK, about the places we are going to visit. He's crazy about Spain!

In another week's time, I'm leaving my job. I haven't got any work for replacement, nor am I eager about the pending job offer. Tomorrow I'll have to meet a bloke (actually my idol) for the discussion. Whatever the decision is, I bet I'm still as pleased. My future is a mystery...

Getting chic

I'm a lazy traveler when it comes to shopping, not that I hate traveling. It's more that I hate to go a far distance to shop. I'm not an enthusiastic buyer, so it wouldn't excite me when I know I have to do shopping. Actually I prefer grocery shopping!! Funny?

My sister was set to go IKEA to hunt for some storage boxes for her junks that have been laying in a heap for months. Finally!!! I was so glad she decided to do something about it. I'm sick of seeing it every morning, every night. She said she would take a cab home, it was then I was convinced to tag along to grab anything that might come in handy. My room cleaning has completed and still in need of some proper storage space.

I went along, found something like a metal framed shelf. It has slots for 4 baskets, it looks a bit out of place in my room though - more for kitchen space to me! My sister spotted a wooden wardrobe organizer, just right for my lingerie!!! He he he. It looks better, just that I have to buy two linen drawers to come with it as well. It's a DIY thing, pretty challenging to do it. Of course I needed my dad's help to finally finish it off - tightening the screws.

Here's what I bought:
LINNAN DRAWER
LINNAN CLOTHES ORGANISER
SQUARE PILLOW COVER

Lost mate

An ex-colleague, John, was supposed to meet us for a booze last friday. In the end, he didn't turn up nor did he contact us, loser!!!! I'm angry, and of course I should be when he stood us up. Not one of us, but three. So me and the others just went along with the usual plan for dinner, amazingly we started to speak as if we were tipsy - sharing gossips, personal life and office politics. It was a very fun evening, just that I felt bad allowing my colleague to foot the bill himself. It wasn't cheap at all!

Men, you flirt

I am sure, a majority of you have flirted with someone (even if you are unaware of it) or had people come flirting with you!

MEN & THEIR FLIRTING SIGNS

The information I'm going to listed below are purely recorded with reference of my own encounters. They might be inaccurate or generalising or stereotyping at the time you are reading it, so read with an open mind. You are encouraged to participate in this conversation (most welcome), comments or none will be recognised. Please do not try to copy or imitate the things listed, as I will not be responsible for the consequences you've landed into.

PAY YOU ATTENTION
- Winking
- Licking lips (hah, this one is rare!)
- Keep eyes on you 80% of the time
- Full of compliments

GET TOUCHY
- Calves stroking
- Trying to hold your hand
- Put his arm on your back, shoulder or waist at any chance

ACTION
- Ask about plan later on / another day
- Invite you to his place

Coming back to me! I'm actually someone quite unresponsive to flirting, it will be different if I want to flirt with someone!! I'm attracted to sincerity, intelligent conversation, sense of humor and one's perseverance. Anyway, happy flirting guys : )

Too much testosterone

Seeing too many men the day before, gave me a very disturbed sleep.

My scalps perspiring so much that it woke me up. I had a dream, wasn't a nightmare yet somehow. I was taking part in this "Survival Contest", maybe hearing too much of the Singapore Survival Style Cable Car Competiton has a cause to this. All the people were supposed to squeeze into a confined area (like a big cylindrical bag which will be zipped up). The only person whom can withstand the suffocation and stuffiness win the game. It's a silly "DARE" game really, anyone could have died. I didn't know why I was in it.

Assumingly I had lost, because the next thing I was playing POKERS with my friends. We were still at the game, waiting to see the results after "DON'T KNOW how many days". I didn't realise where this robotic dog came from, it kept running towards us. I only remember Joy was there with me, playing pokers. The "stopid" dog kept crashing towards us, trying to bite. Its mouth was like a rubbish chute, that wide. So I shoved whatever I could see in sight, into that fiercely snapping mouth. Just then the winner was out, though I hadn't got an idea who he was.

The End

test(is) + ster(ol) + -one

If I am to describe my day in one word, guess what? Testosterone. Okay, now thats a lot more words than just that: male, maleness, masculine, manlike, manly, manful, virile...

My Thursday began with bumping into a male friend (or so he was one) in the elevator this morning??! I was absolutely stunned, what is this man doing in my block!! I stay here, but him?! Is he leaving after a night over someone else's place?? Oh man, just the two of us in the lift, I instantly recognised him. I quickly responded,"Hey, what are you doing here??" Singapore is a little too small for much coincidence isn't it? Same timing, same lift, same block and yes I know him!!

As planned, I met up Barney for lunch... oh well, so called one finally after ruining one months ago. Barney, we always go to that same restaurant for lunch, isn't it?? I can't complain because they serve really yummy japanese food! It has been months since I saw him, so actually had a bit to gossip about.

Minutes later, I had to meet Porky. There wasn't an intention to see him but that was very kind of him to hand me some good stuffs!! Things which I wouldn't or couldn't afford to buy them. I bet my mum will be thrilled when I put those in her hands. She wasn't convinced last night I told her I'd be receiving a can of abalone. Ha ha ha...

In 6 hours, I've seen 3 men whom haven't been in my sight for some time. Will my day continue like that, let's see...

Things to do in London

I was speaking to Guna, thanks to Angela for passing me his contact. Guna is currently on UK holidaymaker visa too, exactly what I want to do. He gets me all curious and eager to go back there. I have endless questions which I've flooded him with... and still a lot more popping up now!! Lucky Guna has friends there with him, at least they are dependable on each other and what more is his free accomodation. I doubt I've that kind of luck to stay for FREE. Anyway, it has provided me with another kind of encouragement and support that I know another person in london. Another Asian. Another Singaporean.

A list of things I want to do in London:
- Feed the pigeons at Trafalgar Square
- Feed the chipmunks / squirrels in Hyde Park
- Visit British Museum again
- Visit National Portrait Gallery
- Step inside St. Paul Cathedral
- See Portobello again
- Shop at Camden again
- Go partying / drinking

That's all for now.. till I have more ideas...

Countdown to chinese new year

Another weekend spent at home spring-cleaning, I think I'm going insane!! I haven't had much social life since the year started let alone a few catching up with my close mates. I do reckon I will make a good homemaker, or at least when I'm all hardworking. It does pay off very well, I feel like I'm having a new room! Errmmm, at least its 90% done now.

Also did some new year goodies shopping with mum, man, I paid for it. Ahh, which is quite a lot! Looks like my parents are set about digging a hole in my pocket, even when I'm almost going to be jobless. So heartless eh! Maybe they supposed I'm filthy rich when I'm decided on going to live in another country 3 times more costly. When can they ever understand its not money, its the life I want to lead... Oh well, maybe I will not spend my 2005 new year back here, ought to do something more this year I guess.

My ex-colleague is back in town; buddy is back at the end of the week; mates are back from holidays... Its telling me its time to go out ;)

My partner

I decided to link this Love Quiz because so far, it has been quite accurate about me.

You are attracted to those who are elegant and well-mannered.

In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

The impression you would like to give to your lover is flexible.

You don't like it when your partner is insecure.

The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is that both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept.

You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

You always want to get married, but in fact, you don't even know what it really is.

At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

I get Friday blues!!

Oh, my friday is just crap!!!! I'm resigning, god's sake, my workload is not decreasing, its increasing!! On a supposedly happy friday, come on, its weekend tomorrow. At the very last hours, stupid stupid stupid clients came back with urgent changes! I'm not going to be polite here, since yes I really think they are such arseholes when it comes to work. Please organise it properly, mr. arse!

I ran out to buy a little pack of Sunkist Orange Juice earlier, that would have helped me cool down a bit.

p/s: To Barney, hey, I thought you were playing hide-&-seek with me, glad you are back on!

WoOOoooo...

I can't believe my luck now, looks like God just sent me a guardian angel. Its helping me get through jobs, money and leaving for London. OOoooooo, thank you so much!

Keeping my fingers crossed still...

Not another one

"Ai yo yo....", shaking head.

Singnet sent me an email about a My DreamD8 contest. It is like a blogging contest, where two winners will walk away with cruises and money. For Singaporeans & Australians. But well, since its no harm giving it a shot, I entered it. The only thing is that, ah, I have more blogs to manage.

If you are in too, pls support me, my blogger name will be Potato In Piccadilly. By the way, when I mean support, you can read me, not necessary vote if you don't want to. I guess in there, I've to talk or promote myself unlike what I'm doing here ;) That can be cheeky.

I carry u

I slept very soundly the night before, something I haven't been able to do for a bit. It felt so good, though I ended up waking up with a running nose. I read the Bible, a few chapters on Judges moments before drowsiness overtaken. I was back home early yesterday to perform "surgery" on my Oakley backpack. The poor thing has been with me for over a year, accompanied me to london, to office (as often) and its getting worn out. I spared it from the bangkok trip because it wasn't looking well to carry more. The straps were fraying and the styrofoam beneath was showing. It had been a few weeks before I finally set my mind of mending it. Despite my sewing skills wasn't superb, I managed to make it look as new as it seemed before. I'm so proud I'm able to bring Oakley to a few more adventures in future.