I feel powerful enough (or perhaps in control is a better word) to not take nonsense anymore. Has it got to do with age? I'm getting wiser and tougher, am I not!
I recently received very unflattering (well, I find them unflattering) comments from a friend. Instead of rectifying things, he made it worse. So I asked for an apology or he gets off my list. When I say things, I MEAN THEM! So off he goes. Some people really think I'm a softie because I don't look I am MEAN enough. So try it.
The recent Monday morning, my sister suddenly went crazy and vented her anger on a stool during breakfast. Then we reprimanded her and got swore back at. It fumed me, we never did anything to provoke her, yet she always vent her work frustration at home. She's an annoying b!tch and I really wonder why we are borned in the same family. I took up the stool and I swore I could have throw that in her face. That ruined the start of my week but it soon got to the back of my mind. I haven't been talking to her since Monday but she's trying to make peace now. I seriously can't be bothered because I don't know when's her next outburst. So let's see how well we do in Chiang Mai, it's a bit of a risk to do a trip with her honestly. The last Hong Kong trip is already hell at times.
Why is it always my friends are taking me for granted??? Say NO to being nice, say NO to yes. But I am not tolerating all the sh!t now. Do it with tact or get the F out of my life. One of my close friends (I don't feel that close anymore) always talk to me as if she's commanding me. She will text me "Call me" whenever she's back. The thing is she can call me, right? I don't mind but I just don't like the way she says it. Can't she be more polite? When she talks to me on the phone or MSN, she screams (yea, try imagining it on MSN). IT IS ANNOYING. So finally today, I replied her, if she can't ask me nicely to ring her, then she should be the one calling! So fine, she's pissed, but she needs to know that's what she deserves to get as a reply.
22.9.11
21.9.11
It used to be a nuisance...
but now nails painting can actually be quite theraupetic!
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| My latest spot - Essie's Petal Pink |
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| Last week - Skinfood Pedicure Glittery Navy Blue |
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| My current feet - China Glaze's For Audrey |
Smartest idea ;)
Why won't they sell ice cream at half price on rainy days???
Well, isn't it so, what's the possibility of anyone getting it during such cold weather???
I would buy it if it's half the price! Anyhow, I had the passion fruit gelato earlier, it was drizzling, at least better than the cold evening the day before. So sour, so to my liking!!
(This reminds me how Giordano sells umbrellas at half price on rainy days!)
Well, isn't it so, what's the possibility of anyone getting it during such cold weather???
I would buy it if it's half the price! Anyhow, I had the passion fruit gelato earlier, it was drizzling, at least better than the cold evening the day before. So sour, so to my liking!!
(This reminds me how Giordano sells umbrellas at half price on rainy days!)
16.9.11
Randomness XIX
The other night, someone's legs caught my eyes. They glittered at night. As she walked closer, I realised they were wrapped in plastic wrap, it must be some slimming treatment. I wonder if she knows they are probably a bit attention seeking.
It has been one year!!! Someone I thought I liked a year ago has now diminished, and sometimes I even forget what he's called. Geez, memory ;) I am glad somehow, you know, things reveal themselves with time, and you sometimes see it's a blessing in disguise.
After 3 years of loss of appetite in the dating game... Recently, things have changed. It was a good rest; I learnt many things about myself in the process, found my happiness and confidence without the need of assurance from anyone, especially men. I can safely say, they still do stir my emotions but I can better control them and also kick the asses aside. Why tolerate men whom do not respect you, they do not deserve us!
A big campaign at work is just over. The people I work closely with recently have became quite anal, always making things difficult and wasting time. Someone is testing my patience again. I need to 打小人。 I found this and it's pretty amusing. Thanks to my team members, they made my life much easier. But there's something I don't understand, why do we always need to be tactful and make them happy when they are wrong??? Just reject them, say "NO"... Is it British culture to be tactful even when its not time to be!? Geez, if so, that surely needs a change. Learn from the Chinese, swear at them!! LOL.
I finally caught up with the friend who treated me like her spouse! Remember the one I was talking about, I almost cut off ties with her. Someone inspired me, she/he said we shouldn't let small things ruin a true friendship. I'm not sure if I can call these small but anyhow I wasn't really bothered to be honest. Things always take two hands to clap, if she's willing to change her attitude, I should give her a chance? I still never felt things have changed, I think its all in her mind.
When I get older, I tend to try things I didn't use to like again. I went to KBox, I never like singing and still don't, but things are fun when you do it with friends. I used to hate earth colors but my clothes, shoes and nails are turning brown... So give it a go, you never know, you might just like something you used to detest.
I'm once again back listening to UK Radio and they still make me giggle. Oh boy, how I miss the English accent!
It has been one year!!! Someone I thought I liked a year ago has now diminished, and sometimes I even forget what he's called. Geez, memory ;) I am glad somehow, you know, things reveal themselves with time, and you sometimes see it's a blessing in disguise.
After 3 years of loss of appetite in the dating game... Recently, things have changed. It was a good rest; I learnt many things about myself in the process, found my happiness and confidence without the need of assurance from anyone, especially men. I can safely say, they still do stir my emotions but I can better control them and also kick the asses aside. Why tolerate men whom do not respect you, they do not deserve us!
A big campaign at work is just over. The people I work closely with recently have became quite anal, always making things difficult and wasting time. Someone is testing my patience again. I need to 打小人。 I found this and it's pretty amusing. Thanks to my team members, they made my life much easier. But there's something I don't understand, why do we always need to be tactful and make them happy when they are wrong??? Just reject them, say "NO"... Is it British culture to be tactful even when its not time to be!? Geez, if so, that surely needs a change. Learn from the Chinese, swear at them!! LOL.
I finally caught up with the friend who treated me like her spouse! Remember the one I was talking about, I almost cut off ties with her. Someone inspired me, she/he said we shouldn't let small things ruin a true friendship. I'm not sure if I can call these small but anyhow I wasn't really bothered to be honest. Things always take two hands to clap, if she's willing to change her attitude, I should give her a chance? I still never felt things have changed, I think its all in her mind.
When I get older, I tend to try things I didn't use to like again. I went to KBox, I never like singing and still don't, but things are fun when you do it with friends. I used to hate earth colors but my clothes, shoes and nails are turning brown... So give it a go, you never know, you might just like something you used to detest.
I'm once again back listening to UK Radio and they still make me giggle. Oh boy, how I miss the English accent!
12.9.11
Turning 30 in 38623 minutes
As I write this, most of my closest friends have turned 30... I am almost the last. And I thought I'd like to re-live my memories as I count the days to the new phase of my life.
I have loved and hated.
I have almost drowned, crashed and died.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
I have severed ties and also rekindled them.
I have let go of toxic relationships.
I have learnt to cherish,
I have found hope and lost it once again.
I have survived my darkest days.
I have found myself, and continue to discover more.
I have lied, cheated and been dishonest.
I have done good to reap karma.
I have travelled alone, with friends or family.
I have been loved.
I have friends I thank God for.
I have had great bosses and also shitty ones.
I have people whom came into my life as my guardian angels or bad asses, both I learnt many things from.
I have learnt and never stop learning.
I have done myself proud, my parents proud and occasionally those whom I meant something to.
I have had days I was ashamed, disgraced or humiliated.
I have done things I regretted, and hopefully not anymore.
I have succeeded and failed.
I have my courageous days and times I just want to shrink my head back in the shell.
I have been lucky, and also many times unlucky.
I have many fond memories of those dear to my heart but whom have left.
I have many unanswered wishes and endless faith.
I think I could go on and on.... I have no idea why I am writing this, but suddenly it just came to me. I want to share with you guys that life is all about balance. There's always good and bad, there's always up and down. We can pick ourselves up if you want to, we can always see the positive side of things if you want to. There's a lot of things within our control if you want to take control of it. That includes saving our planet. There's no doubt there are bad times, there's also no doubt there are people whom want to make others' lives miserable. We can find happiness within ourselves, and we don't need it to come from others, to reassure us. I hope all of you find contentment in the simple things in life, because in fact we do not need much to be happy.
I have loved and hated.
I have almost drowned, crashed and died.
I have forgiven and forgotten.
I have severed ties and also rekindled them.
I have let go of toxic relationships.
I have learnt to cherish,
I have found hope and lost it once again.
I have survived my darkest days.
I have found myself, and continue to discover more.
I have lied, cheated and been dishonest.
I have done good to reap karma.
I have travelled alone, with friends or family.
I have been loved.
I have friends I thank God for.
I have had great bosses and also shitty ones.
I have people whom came into my life as my guardian angels or bad asses, both I learnt many things from.
I have learnt and never stop learning.
I have done myself proud, my parents proud and occasionally those whom I meant something to.
I have had days I was ashamed, disgraced or humiliated.
I have done things I regretted, and hopefully not anymore.
I have succeeded and failed.
I have my courageous days and times I just want to shrink my head back in the shell.
I have been lucky, and also many times unlucky.
I have many fond memories of those dear to my heart but whom have left.
I have many unanswered wishes and endless faith.
I think I could go on and on.... I have no idea why I am writing this, but suddenly it just came to me. I want to share with you guys that life is all about balance. There's always good and bad, there's always up and down. We can pick ourselves up if you want to, we can always see the positive side of things if you want to. There's a lot of things within our control if you want to take control of it. That includes saving our planet. There's no doubt there are bad times, there's also no doubt there are people whom want to make others' lives miserable. We can find happiness within ourselves, and we don't need it to come from others, to reassure us. I hope all of you find contentment in the simple things in life, because in fact we do not need much to be happy.
5.9.11
It's time to decide... uugghhh
I have a problem.
I am a neurotic perfectionist with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Well this is not scientifically proven, but again it's my anxiety at work. I hate having to make a decision, like a final one out of so many choices. Too many choices is NOT a good thing, it makes me anxious, stressed and forces the perfectionism in me to surface. Read this article. You will agree that sometimes less is more. When you have less choices, it's very easy to filter, and you would reach a decision in a much shorter time. Do you sometimes shopped for hours and ended up with nothing? I do - quite a couple of times, at a book sale, mega sale, bookstore or even for clothings. I just gave up choosing.
Consumerism gives us far too many choices... When you want to buy something, how do you decide on a brand? Hearsay, reviews or advertising? Advertising is the perfect example of marketing gimmicks. You make something look good so people buy it. Some people hate the TV because they feel advertising is bullsh*t, the TV programmes distort people's perception of things and the fairy tales idealize life. Don't you agree, they make you believe in love at first sight, or the hero always win ultimately and the bad people always have retribution? And do these happen in real life? Sometimes they do, only sometimes.
A good example is I recently booked my hotel for Chiang Mai. Initially even before I got my flight, I had in mind just 2 places I really would like to stay. One is very affordable while the other is not. I had set my mind on dividing time between the two, but realised later the hassle might not be worth it. Then when I began a search, there are over 200 choices on Agoda, and I believe even more when there are those whom do not have online presence. I then shortlisted my favourites (forgotten about my initial choices) but as time went by, the popular ones got fully booked and I just had to make a decision quick. I detest it. I hate doing something under pressure. But I booked it, one of my preferred choices but not the ideal. Then I became obsessed about my decision. "Did I make the right choice?" "What if I found somewhere even better and cheaper?" "What if the reviews aren't true?" So many unnecessary question marks in my head. I had a urge to look again even though I had already paid for my booking. I'm insane. Tell me, am I not? One should learn to let go, "Just let it go... and accept it", I remind myself. It might not be what someone else has described in their review but it will be my own experience and I can make it just as good as I would like it!
To end this off, I want to share with you a wise quote from the above site - "The freedom to make choices brings the responsibility to live with the consequences." (copyrighted to Psychology Today)
And now I shall wash my hands off it, force my brain to shut off and look forward to the holiday in October~
I am a neurotic perfectionist with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Well this is not scientifically proven, but again it's my anxiety at work. I hate having to make a decision, like a final one out of so many choices. Too many choices is NOT a good thing, it makes me anxious, stressed and forces the perfectionism in me to surface. Read this article. You will agree that sometimes less is more. When you have less choices, it's very easy to filter, and you would reach a decision in a much shorter time. Do you sometimes shopped for hours and ended up with nothing? I do - quite a couple of times, at a book sale, mega sale, bookstore or even for clothings. I just gave up choosing.
Consumerism gives us far too many choices... When you want to buy something, how do you decide on a brand? Hearsay, reviews or advertising? Advertising is the perfect example of marketing gimmicks. You make something look good so people buy it. Some people hate the TV because they feel advertising is bullsh*t, the TV programmes distort people's perception of things and the fairy tales idealize life. Don't you agree, they make you believe in love at first sight, or the hero always win ultimately and the bad people always have retribution? And do these happen in real life? Sometimes they do, only sometimes.
A good example is I recently booked my hotel for Chiang Mai. Initially even before I got my flight, I had in mind just 2 places I really would like to stay. One is very affordable while the other is not. I had set my mind on dividing time between the two, but realised later the hassle might not be worth it. Then when I began a search, there are over 200 choices on Agoda, and I believe even more when there are those whom do not have online presence. I then shortlisted my favourites (forgotten about my initial choices) but as time went by, the popular ones got fully booked and I just had to make a decision quick. I detest it. I hate doing something under pressure. But I booked it, one of my preferred choices but not the ideal. Then I became obsessed about my decision. "Did I make the right choice?" "What if I found somewhere even better and cheaper?" "What if the reviews aren't true?" So many unnecessary question marks in my head. I had a urge to look again even though I had already paid for my booking. I'm insane. Tell me, am I not? One should learn to let go, "Just let it go... and accept it", I remind myself. It might not be what someone else has described in their review but it will be my own experience and I can make it just as good as I would like it!
To end this off, I want to share with you a wise quote from the above site - "The freedom to make choices brings the responsibility to live with the consequences." (copyrighted to Psychology Today)
And now I shall wash my hands off it, force my brain to shut off and look forward to the holiday in October~
31.8.11
And so he has arrived...
This is a professional review on my new man >> here.
I read all about him. I went around searching for him (to have a test ride). When I finally found him, but my initial thoughts was he was quite a handful, as in he took up the whole of my palm! He wasn't the easiest to mind read; I kept pressing on his wrong buttons, at times I almost gave up. He doesn't has a manual, the only way to know him is still to keep pressing those buttons till I get them right. A pdf could only go this far. Forums do help.
To date, it has been a little over 2 weeks, 17 days old to be exact. I'm still figuring him out, it probably will take me quite a while. I don't think I know everything about my BB whom now sits by my bed as my alarm. His rubber parts have all fallen apart making him prone to dust invasion, so I have to tuck him nicely in a pouch. I still recall having a spare samsung phone which I need to bring out on special occasions, e.g. attending a wedding dinner, a party or anything I wouldn't have much time on the phone! Now, how many phones is considered too many??
Anyway, why did I choose this man? It's very simple, I pick anything free* that goes with my plan. My desired brand this time round is HTC, and there are only 2 choices - Wildfire S and Incredible S. The only thing keeping me back from the purchase was the HTC support in Singapore which I read is horrendous. I hope I never have to use them. I would have considered HTC ChaCha just for the keypad but they are only limited to SingTel, so one choice down. I later saw it in reality and thought I would never give up BB for ChaCha if you saw the way it looked.
*Means I only pay a nominal fee 2 years later if I keep this phone.
While it has a few things I'm still getting used to, such as a touchscreen keypad, highly sensitive touchscreen, pressing the power button everytime I need to unlock it... Also many that Android can possibly improve, having folders in "All apps" instead of on home screen, enhanced address book and other built in apps but these we can easily replaced with the others we choose to install.
I'm not a big iPhone fan, but I don't hate them as well. I think they are good if you just want it like a bundle, just like a packaged tour, it comes all inclusive with many add-ons. I do like to point out a few things my handful man can do (I'm not an iPhone user, so correct me if I'm wrong if iPhone can do that as well):
1. Weather widget
My favourite built in app. It rains and shines on my screen, it never fails to brighten up a gloomy day.
2. Customisable apps and themes
I have now Go SMS and Go Contacts to replace the default SMS inbox and address book. Sorry B, Handcent SMS interface doesn't appeal as much to me as this one does. I can even use a different theme everytime! I have a few now. I'm looking forward to change it to the Christmas one when time comes.
3. I can stick a post-it note on my home screen as a reminder!
4. I have 6 screens to play around with to place my favourite short-cuts, or widgets from the apps, e.g. daily horoscope, weather or news feed.
I can't think of more now, but I will tell you later if I find out more new features. I never thought anything of widgets until I'm now an Android user! They are godsend inventions!! By now, I have already 7 pages of apps from the inital 2-3 provided, I'm becoming an apps whore. The 8mp camera also comes with default lomo effects which I can readily apply. But who needs them when there are too many free apps around! Mr. Incredible S is also lighter than iPhone 4, I have allowed my surrounding iPhone users to have a comparison test.
So he's really quite a handful, isn't he!
Pinkly annoying
Something as easy as the wrong nail color spoils my mood. I don't know why but perhaps this is what color therapy is all about. I wore red (code 60, Golden Rose) some days back, it was bright, cheery and attention seeking. I have to agree it's an awesome red color. Though I enjoyed it, it wasn't really my color. It made me more prone to agitation and impatience.
My colleague kindly lent me two of her polishes she bought from Korea. The crimson pink (PK 204, Nature Republic) that looked awesome on her somehow sits on me now like we aren't related. It was a pleasant sight at first, but the more I look at it, the more I feel how unsuitable they are on me. It irritates me that I am unable to get them off right now. So *itchy hands* I topped them off with a layer of Essie Petal Pink, a translucent light pink, it somehow changes the color. Now, more a toned down crimson pink. I wonder how long they will last on my fingers, I don't have much confidence they will.
My colleague kindly lent me two of her polishes she bought from Korea. The crimson pink (PK 204, Nature Republic) that looked awesome on her somehow sits on me now like we aren't related. It was a pleasant sight at first, but the more I look at it, the more I feel how unsuitable they are on me. It irritates me that I am unable to get them off right now. So *itchy hands* I topped them off with a layer of Essie Petal Pink, a translucent light pink, it somehow changes the color. Now, more a toned down crimson pink. I wonder how long they will last on my fingers, I don't have much confidence they will.
30.8.11
BB I miss you!
I really do.
If you ever see me blog from mobile, I am using my BB. It's almost impossible for me to type on a touchscreen without feeling like throwing it against the wall. Nothing beats a real keypad. I do love my new phone for all the other functions, except accidentally tapping on my data usage! Other than that, it serves me pretty well. Ebooks, games, camera applications... The awesome weather widget, the ability to bookmark news for offline reading, free messaging with my oversea friends... There's definitely a lot more, so I can close one eye about the keypad. It just means I would write lesser, but I still can with my BB I guess :) I want to tell you all about the new phone but I shall leave it to another time.
Have a good holiday everyone!
If you ever see me blog from mobile, I am using my BB. It's almost impossible for me to type on a touchscreen without feeling like throwing it against the wall. Nothing beats a real keypad. I do love my new phone for all the other functions, except accidentally tapping on my data usage! Other than that, it serves me pretty well. Ebooks, games, camera applications... The awesome weather widget, the ability to bookmark news for offline reading, free messaging with my oversea friends... There's definitely a lot more, so I can close one eye about the keypad. It just means I would write lesser, but I still can with my BB I guess :) I want to tell you all about the new phone but I shall leave it to another time.
Have a good holiday everyone!
Weird peh-peh
I wonder if it pays to be nice. I guess not all the time. Today I gave up my seat to a peh-peh, someone old enough to be my grandpa by the look of it. When a seat was available, I ended up sitting besides him, he then got a little friendly and asked where I was heading. I told him reluctantly, coincidentally he was heading to the same destination. Then he asked where I am staying! I gave a rough answer about the area but he kept asking me for my block number that it freaked me out. He told me he's staying at Block 260. Hello peh-peh, thanks for telling me that, but I have no intention to let you know where I stay. Say I'm paranoid if you want but this is not the kampong era where you probably could easily trust all the people in your little kampong.
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