Oink!!

"Don't be a pig..."

I've to stop eating too much; I can't help myself. Recent weeks, I had been doing the full lunch and light dinner regime. This week, it didn't seem to work that well. I am always having more than a bite for the evening. This is scaring me. It's not that my weight has increased tremendously which I do not think so yet. However, it is making me feel bad - about my well being. Arghh, girls are girls. Too conscious whether you gain a pound or even just 100g. Am I right??

Let's put today for a good example.
Breakfast: 3 Small-medium cookies & Orange juice
Lunch: Roast Beef with Roast Potato, Yorkshire Pudding, Cabbage & Fresh Horseradish
In-between lunch-dinner: Orange juice; Chocolate swiss Roll; Sweet nougat-like slice (which someone offered me, already rejected another huge butter cookie); Marks & Spencer cow gummies (just a couple)
Dinner-to-be: Chocolate banana muffin (hopefully not more!)

Hows that? Usually back home, I'll grab a mini lightly salted chips for the night :) Greedy greedy. Now I feel my button in the pants trying to push the tummy away, "you're squeezing me too hard"!! Stop eating junks. I tend to buy more chocolates n sweets over here, just spoiled for choices really. Singapore has such a small variety and so uninteresting. Mmm I can't complain about Singapore because thats why people over them are so much slimmer!! Right!!

I'll try to ermm... stop feeding myself too much, okay :)

quack quackkk

The restaurant in the office is spoiling me, in fact, it has encouraged me not to cook my own meals. I always have such a fabulous and filling lunch, in the evening I just make do with a muffin or yogurt or salad. Oh everyday I look forward to come to work, because of the food. It's not that I don't enjoy what I do at work, but yes lunch is first on the list.

I had a nearly 5 pounds meal in Chinatown on Sunday again, but it couldn't even match up to the standard of a 2 pounds Marks & Spencer sandwich. I hate Chinatown food, crap! I wanted to get some mooncakes to go through a "alone-in-London" mid-autumn, but look at the prices and you can't even bear to eat them.

French; North African; South African; UK-borned-Honkie. 4 new friends I met outside work. Not that great, not that many, but I can see it growing. Colleagues are still better :)

Back to the title. Yes, no duck rice. Fine, I have something even much better today at half that price. Honey & Orange Glazed Duck Leg with Boulangere Potato & Broccoli.

Wahahaha...

I finally unlocked my new phone from the damned freaking network - vodafone!! Ho ho ho... I'm so happy.

Ok, I paid 20 pounds for that. 20 pounds for nothing but it made me screaming now. "It has regained its freedom, congratulations, my phone!"

EMI wowee

Days seem to pass quick with at least 8 hours out of the house... or well, in front of another monitor at work. I always wonder how long I will be there... EMI has a very cool office, I guess I should say a building. There's 5 levels plus a ground. A perfect and affordable cafe for the staffs, that serves breakfast to lunch and drinks after office hours. Cool people everywhere... I always see different people at lunch time. Even though today I haven't met anyone new. I guess people have noticed I'm new. I'm starting to enjoy the work here, I can't say it's better than Singapore. But it does feel good. I like the environment, the people I work together with, and even though I can't chat at work - time still flies. Amazing eh??

I have to say I get along pretty well with one of the new colleagues I met at work. Not in the sense that we hit it off in many ways, but we are at the same frequency. Yeah, maybe being around the same age makes it easy, ah, I'm younger of course. What more - He has the mobile phone I've always been dreaming of!!! K700i!!!!

The first thing I arrive at the office is to surf the intranet and check the lunch menu! Ha ha ha, sounds like a hungry ghost... but that's the only time I look forward to. Lunch and chit chat. Working is fine, just that I do not have to use my mouth that much, ya understand?

*A pat on the back*

I need to praise myself...

Leaving my loved ones behind... I haven't thought of myself as being selfish, because I've considered all the factors encouraging and supporting my decision beforehand. I always thought I was so strong, but the day I left, I cried so bad. Now I've to say that I do think I am strong...

I'm independent. I have the courage to follow my dream. I can take care of myself. I enjoy my loneliness. I'm taking more initiatives. I can handle my emotions better. I'm doing everything by myself!! I love this life, I can't say how grateful I feel that I have flown here... It's picking up slow, but definitely going somewhere. I know I'll be much a wiser person when I return home.

Wait for me, my friends :)

I miss you, duck!

Walking in Piccadilly Circus at 8pm made me felt like I am in a dream. Was it because its the first time in the two weeks that I was out this late in the city - central London? Or perhaps it feels kind of refreshing to be back here. It was the most frequent place I visited last year when I stepped my foot in London. It was not at all crowded, but there was a street performance going on and people surrounded the centre of Piccadilly.

I had the most expensive dinner tonight. I just wanted to let go and not think of the conversion rate, ha ha ha. I walked down Soho - Chinatown, in hope of looking for some cheap Chinese food. Now, don't ever think Chinese food are always cheap. It's even more costly than the KFC, BK, Fish & Chips or even Pizza Hut. My dream of eating roast duck rice was ruined, it costs almost 10 times more than what we have in Singapore. Consider yourself lucky now if you're eating char siew or duck rice back home. They sell like £6-8 for just a plate of duck rice, imagine... I opted for the cheaper Chinese buffet at £5. At least it was a buffet and I had like 3 servings (not that much really with each).

Now I love my mum's curry chicken. The curry chicken here just tastes funny! Yes, funny...

Is this my dream...

Quoting this from my buddy's blog... 
p.s: u'll need chinese encoding to read the lyrics!

"It's been about 2 weeks since Trixy left for London to embark on her holiday maker dream. Time flies fast. I'm still trying to believe that she's really over there in the UK already. We still get to msn each other rather often still since she's currently putting up at a friend's place for the time being. But thanks to her I finally got the answer to my marks and spencers smoked salmon sandwich. Shall think about that when I have the chance to visit the cold storage or super market.

Gonna pinch myself. Okay, I ain't dreaming. She's really there. Tsk tsk...

As I was saying, I'm still trying to believe she's really over there now. I remembered the day we went to send her off at the airport. Suddenly I seemed so heartless, my eyes wouldn't shed a single tear during our farewell. Amongst the Fab4, Syndy was the first to cry. At the gate, I could see Trixy's parents and elder sister tearing. Trixy too along with Syndy and even Lisi. Only I did not cried. I really wonder why too. How I wish I could. Perhaps I was happy for Trixy and maybe a little envy, hence I felt there wasn't a need for tears under such circumstances. Glad for her that she's flying off to start off a new chapter in her life. But I wrote her a letter that's to be read on the plane. In it I mentioned about one of JJ's song, 翅膀 [wings]. I wanted to dedicate that song to Trixy not because it's by JJ , but for it's words and meaning. Hope it can be a sorta motivation for her whenever she's feeling down or lonely there.

The song was written when JJ [think so] was feeling down in Taiwan, thinking about his ex-gal. Unfortunately JJ borke off with his gal as he had to fly off to Taiwan to become a singer. [Hope I did a good enough translation of the lyrics]

翅膀 - wings

同样的机场 不同世界 - the same airport yet different worlds
同样的咖啡 不同味觉 - the same coffee yet different tastes
同样的我和我 都少了一些 - the same me and I, seem lacking a little something
看飞机划过天空 不见了 - the plane flew past, disappearing into the sky
用你给我的翅膀飞 - I'm flying with the wings you gave me
我懂这不是伤悲 再高都不会累 - I know that this isn't saddness, it won't tire me out no matter how high I soar
我们都说好了 用你给我的翅膀飞 - we've agreed, to fly with the wings you gave me
我感觉己够安慰 乌云也不再多 - I'm comforted enough, gloomy clouds no longer seem that much
我们也不为谁掉眼泪 - we won't have to shed tears for each other
空气中藏着 你的香味 - your fragrance's been hidden in the air
回忆里躲着 你的眼泪 - your tears's been hidden in the memories
最后拥抱的 温暖还有一些 - I remembered our last warm hug
我拖着行李往前 一直走 - I kept on walking ahead while dragging my luggage
看一看回忆 是云朵 一朵朵的飘过 - memories are just like clouds, floating away one by one.
若想要回头 就无法傲翔 - I won't be able to soar if I were to turn back

JJ’s case was that he had to leave his beloved to pursue his career. Whereas Trix's was to leave Singapore and loved ones in search and pursue of her dreams and to travel around Europe. Though both JJ and Trix had different reasons for leaving, but still for a same cause. i.e. Dreams~

Hope this new pair of wings will help Trix soar high towards her dreams and goals. I envy Trix [not cos of the holidaymaker thingy] who manage to discover her dreams and going ahead to realizing it, making it come true. She's chasing after it while me am still lost as ever, without any hint of where to head.

Nevertheless I'm glad that I didn't tag along with her this time, for if I do, it's her dream that I'm chasing and not mine. Although I really hope I can be a holidaymaker too, I guess it ain't the right time for me yet. I waver too much.

So here's wishing Trixy lotsa luck. Take care and have fun! Cya soon next year! Miss ya lots! *muacks*

posted Tuesday, 31 August 2004

I think I think too much

Shepherd pie and salad for dinner...

Now that I've eaten, I think that's quite a lot. Damned... I finally had rice again, at lunch time, EMI has an own canteen catering. How nice!! Always good menu, I can't help letting my eyes watered over those big sized chocolate muffins.

I met a few new people over lunch - Kim, Jessica & Dominic. I guess every lunch time I should sit at a different table so I'll get to know most people by the time I leave. Ha ha ha... It was cool, I do not speak when I eat, so I was listening to their conversation. Typical british lunch gossip :) It made me happier knowing some people at work now.

I had a short conversation with this guy who sat besides me on the way home, an englishman. Ahh, somehow I recall someone telling me that it's hard to find an englishman here as there's more other nationalities than the local in london. It wouldn't be bad that I'm sitting next to a few now eh.

And on my way home, walking alone, it always reminds me of people back home... I wonder how they are doing. I hope my parents are getting used to the idea that I'm here and trying to live a life of my own for a bit and not worry about bad things going to happen! I wonder how my friends are doing, still enjoying unemployed life?? I wonder how my sister is doing in school, has she learnt to cook some steak fillet?? I also wonder what is rabbit doing on a typical Friday night??

Chheeezzz.. I can't believe my luck in getting a room, that bad!

Trying luck finding luck

I saw David Beckham sleeping, yes in National Portrait Gallery! Well, its just a video/picture, but its him...

I picked a penny on the ground. Is it a lucky penny??

Today, 2nd September, I started the first day with my job. Not full time, just freelance. It might end soon, it's only the beginning and I'm already foreseeing how fast it is going to come to an end. Sad, can I take things a bit slower?? Grant me the wish please!!

First day of everything is always exciting and boring at the same time; excited to meet new people but boring because everything for you is not been set up yet. I did try to do some work, yeah, remember I'm paid hourly so I better do something to see my money coming in... At 5.15pm, 8 hours after I stepped in... I called the day off. How long can I stay on the first day? How much can I do on the first day? I reckon, it should be short and sweet. Tomorrow, I hope I find myself occupied for the 8 hours.

Rabbit called me, I was obviously delighted because someone cares about my first day at work as well. It is always nice to hear from the loved ones, it makes me feel so much at home :)

Don't end, summer

Suddenly I started to wonder why I'm here!!!

I shouldn't lead a life like what I used to do back in Singapore. That will be meaningless. Spending all the money here and flying here for the wrong reason. I've to get back in track, my dream of travelling. Maybe it is now too soon to begin another new journey when I'm not even settled here for the 2 weeks. Again, I should be more patient and take it slow, shouldn't I? Life in london has yet to begin, yet to party, yet to make those ground thumping! It is an extended holiday and I have to live it like one :)

I get picky about seeing hairs lying on the floor...

Yes, my hair, not that I mind them dropping. I just can't stand the sight. Sometimes I see myself enjoying picking up the strands and carefully dropped them in the bin.

My itchy feet has started again. Mmmmm.

Not the athlete foot. Wanderlust. I went to EMI (Music) for some project fee negotiation, heh, better not talk about it! I hope I'll have some money coming into my pocket, even if its not a lot! Kekek.. I walked about the south of london, took trains to different places and wandered around like a lost soul. In fact, it is interesting. I want to see different places and think about where I shall find my new room. I kind of like west and south london, but only the ones with malls and supermarkets. I can't live without any stores nearby really!!