3am thoughts

It's late late Saturday night... or maybe call it Sunday.

Today, I have completed quite a few tasks... Why are my weekends never free? Got to do laundry, settle online stuff (e.g. internet banking, looking at friends' updates in FB & clearing the week long of emails) and finding time for myself to relax... e.g. blog. I know I haven't been blogging, work was bugging me. I even went out today and bought myself a really adorable organizer that allows me to plan the monthly schedule, I can't live without one... need to jot down the happenings for the next 1 year.

I have renewed my contract, now working on a new project (not new, just something other people are dumping because they are leaving). However, I'm not thoroughly enjoying myself, my project manager is a 2 faced animal, sometimes he's nice and a lot of times he's not. I heard so many things about him that I don't feel like doing his projects anymore. I was supposed to help him with a new one once this one ends (which I doubt will be on time with all the issues coming up!). I feel that his main problem is he doesn't know how to improve his interpersonal relationship with others and he's also kind of lazy in a way. What to do? I will see if I am able to enjoy or bear the coming months, I really want to finish this contract then go for a holiday later on.

Since I have gotten my BlackBerry, it seems like a lot of people suddenly are using or interested as well. It'll be good in future then I can do data plan and IM them for free! For now, I'm good... I'm using it like a normal phone, occasionally surfing on FB or checking email... but I love to MMS :)

Chinese New Year is coming... faster than I expected. Angela is coming back to spend CNY, and maybe Syndy too. A small reunion without Joy, but I'm sure one day we can all meet again. I told Angela about the idea of us celebrating a joint 30th birthday! It's scary to think that it's coming... well in 2011.

I used to have an ideal age to get married. I even wrote down a list of requirements of my ideal man when I was young. It's amusing to think of it now. It'll be even funnier if I can manage to find that piece of paper again! But by now, the ideal age is already over... and I somehow have also lost the urge to find the ideal man. And love isn't as simple as I thought (when I was younger, probably read too many fairy tales). It's a bit of everything. Luck, fate, chemistry, timing, lust... etc. Well I think it is. But it's even worse to settle for one just for the sake of the pressure from parents, peers or age limit. I'll tell you all about it one day... if I ever find this ideal man ;)

Recently I was introduced to hypnosis, and was even talking to a hypnotist. He practised it himself for years, and I thought it'd be interesting to find out what my subconscious mind is thinking. Hypnotizing isn't as scary as it is perceived to be, the movies and TV shows portrayed it badly. It is harmful when someone wants to use it for bad causes but not often the case. It seems that it is indeed more helpful if you can apply it to change your life for the better ;) If I manage to do this, I shall share with you the experience!

Time for bed.