2010 with a roar

Happy 2010!

I can't believe the new year has arrived, can you??

Somehow I am glad that the last is over... 2008 was a horrible year for me, 2009 was slightly better and this year it should be the BEST. I am starting it with definitely a much more positive attitude than the past. Having gone through so much sh*t, it can't get any worse, right?

Christmas 2009 was fabulous... and so was the countdown to 2010. I caught up with so many old and new friends in past weeks, that I was wondering what I had been doing the rest of the time. Though some of my friends are still abroad, I still remember them fondly during these time.

Unfortunately, some of my friends are in some kind of depressed mood, and it can be kind of infectious too. One of them just split up with the girlfriend whom chose to return to her home country after living some time in Vietnam. I think I can understand that. Another of my close friend just suddenly withdrew into her own world just because she took her friendship with others too seriously. People changed over time, friends come and go... I guess she's just too sentimental for her own good. I ended my 8 years friendship with a guy I deemed my best friend who knew everything about my life too about a year ago. It was difficult but I made the right choice and my gut instinct still says it too. I took so long to realise I have befriended someone whom constantly picked on me, put me down, used me as his punching bag... though he did sometimes help me quite a bit. But eventually the negative parts of it overwhelmed, I couldn't take it anymore. That's when you understand the phrase "Enough is enough!". I hope both of them will overcome the bad times and soon see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Tomorrow.. the first Monday of the year also marks the start and end of my working life. My 2-months contract is up, time flies ;) I loathe my recruitment agency (or more the agent really). So I guess, what's next? Another unpredictable start - which I am almost no stranger to.

Life. I have fortunate friends who have blessed lives, as well as others who seem to have miserable ones. I guess at the end of the day, it ultimately depends on the individual's perspective of their life. You can be miserable for as long as you want to, but you can choose to be happy too. REMEMBER YOU HAVE A CHOICE. My life is so imperfect, but I'm getting by fine, happier and no longer like Mary who lost her little lamb. Sometimes it's easier to live by without setting expectations. I looked back and realised the happiest time I actually had were those without expecting something in return, because when you set one, you always have the risk to get disappointed. Set goal instead of expectation! :)

It's time to get in bed now. I hope my first post of the year will somehow inspire anyone who reads it! Good night, sleep tight too!