Heavy 重

Someone has been getting on my nerves. I've been asking myself if it's me (I admit at times it could be), but recently I realise it isn't so much of me. Everyone is flawed, however his behaviour has gotten far too much and I can't take it anymore. He has been taking me for granted just because I could tolerate him and his mood swings for so many years. I think he is expecting too much from this friend of his. I have only this much to give and I'm feeling the emptiness now. I dislike the feeling of being someone he could vent his frustration on, someone whom he could unload his burden of negativity and darkness... I want to be happy-go-lucky but with him around I'm constantly on my toes, worrying and watching out if I'll fall down next (together with him). I'm tired of feeling chained and I don't want this anymore. I am going to free myself, no matter how far this friendship has come to. I can't tolerate this shit anymore.