What am I to do

I am doing a job that seriously will bring me to nowhere, at least not where I want to be some years down the road. Quit? Leave? Change? I need a career switch, yet I haven't got a single idea what is it that I will want to do. Maybe there are just too many choices, or maybe I haven't made up my mind, or maybe the right choice hasn't come into my view... What is it??? Where is it?? When is it???? I feel stuck in a rut, and I really need to get out of this.

My hatred for someone has grown so much, not that I was aware of. It's so overwhelming I could feel that pain inside... How do I release it, I guess the person whom caused it is my only solution for lifting it... That's what I believe. I have to face it and I actually am quite anxious to see my own reaction to the situation again. I know I have to do some self-control before it gets out of control again! Why can't women be themselves, be emotional, why do you men think expressing emotions is crazy or a form of weakness??

Further studies?? Or escape? I feel like going back to the books again, but not sure if I just want to escape from what I am doing or am I really keen to study again. Perhaps I should do a short course for my new career path?? I think I should but what is it that I should be taking up? Can I leave Singapore for some time, I don't know why... Singapore hasn't got anything I really must avoid, but somehow I feel like being away all alone for a while.

p.s: Finally it is Friday... some time to ponder about my new career path! Or rather my brand new life...