Numbered...

It is scary when you can count in one hand, the number of days you are going to have a major change... e.g. Leaving a country for good, leaving for studies, for work?? Leaving your family, your loved ones, your friends?? Getting out of a shit situation, an abusive relationship or a relationship that's going nowhere?? Leaving a job for something better or even for nothing new lined up?

Oh, not to forget, am I supposed to be feeling scared, excited, sad or something else? I don't know, I always feel this day will come when I have to leave somewhere for good. Probably for now. The very fact that I am leaving a country, a man whom I loved and a relationship that didn't prove to be mutually satisfying, is sufficient enough to make me feel messed up or more commonly depressed. Somewhat I am feeling indifferent. For once, I felt that the end of something is always a start of something better... yes, that is a very positive outlook I should continue to stick with:)))

With my next destination, London, there is a lot to offer or a lot that I can already imagine doing. So, I won't be bored!! Some friends will be enjoying the rest of my "holiday" with me, another Europe trip to Milan, and then some days before finally stepping down onto Singapore soil. How weird will that feeling be when you finally know that ,"Oh I am back and I am going to stay... at least for a bit."