The phrase...

"Forgive & Forget" is so so so underestimated.

Sometimes I wish the people who tend to use them first try it themselves. Can you do that easily, if yes, do you think that's a magic trick? Teach me then.

I have forgiven a lot of people whom I held grudges against in my past. Some were a breeze, others took a longer time. It is often easier said than done. Often things that mean a lot to you, have sentimental value or bring back memories usually are a tad tougher.

After a lot of self defensive text messages, she asked me this question, "Can I forgive & forget?" I almost wish this is as easy, I don't hate her, of course. But at the back of my mind, I know I can't promise so easily. Why do people take each other for granted so easily? Why does jealousy easily blind a person and totally changed her overnight? If she could give me a cold shoulder, hostile attitude and treat me invisible for almost a year, why should I forgive and forget in just one day? Am I stupid or something?

I am sometimes so tired of having to put in so much just to maintain a friendship built up with so much trust and memories. A friendship some years short of twenty years, yet needs so much reassurance and possessiveness.

It sometimes doesn't need much to know why I so prefer time alone, does it?