Obsession, obsession.
It can be pretty scary. When I'm focused on just one thing, I tend to lose sight of the many others in its surrounding. Yet it is hard to change this habit, is it a good thing I wonder? It's devotion, concentration and determination. Though I don't think it's always a good thing but it can be in certain circumstances. I need to learn to let it loose, and being able to divide my attention somehow ;)
Talking about this, I'm referring to playing some online games. I could forgo even conversations with my BFFs. I can do without being online on any messenger just so I can have full concentration playing my games. Seriously. But I'm not games crazy everyday, I just find it an outlet to not think about anything else when I focus on some meaningless stuff. In fact, I think it's quite therapeutic.
These days, interpersonal relationships are not as simple as the earlier days when you were a teenager. Sometimes I find it even stressful to be online on MSN, because I feel obliged to chat when I don't want to chat at all. Sometimes I just don't want to talk to somebody. Sometimes I just want to talk to a particular someone and not the others but I have to entertain the others. Sometimes I just like to be online but be left alone. LOL. But my "Busy" and "Away" statuses have lost their power because I have abused them :P
How do I tell someone that I'm just not in the mood to chat, or I really don't want to talk to you at this time or everytime? I think it's easier just not to be online, isn't it?
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