Plagued

Bad luck has been following tightly behind me, secretly lurking around corners, hiding in my shadow and even sleeping under my bed... It must have been this way because I have not gotten any good fortune.

Who said this is a luckier year for Roosters??? BULLSHIT.

Even that divination lot (click here if you like to understand how it works!) I got on Saturday from the temple says it is BAD. It says the situation isn't good or bad but neutral; I shouldn't be whipping the horse to speed things up. By that I guess it means I shouldn't be rushing into things, I shouldn't act on impulse... Should I be just letting things happening at its own course, taking things as it is now and patiently wait for the right time??? I can't help myself - I am still so impatient.

I feel jinxed, stuck, lost and aimless.

I'm that little girl hiding my head in my red hoodie, standing helplessly in the middle of the forest... without a compass. I need to find that north star that guides me to a river, takes me to the road... brings me to sunlight.