My dad is a boring good man; my mum is mahjong-crazed; my big sis is a shopaholic. I don't know what I am, I'm neither of them all. I'm dissimilar. I like to think I've taught my lil sis my way of living life, since she's like my twin soul. She's supportive of what I'm doing, but often too intruding.
My childhood is filled with financial disputes. Mum gambling away money, us forking out money, dad earning money to fill it in, mum tipping us money if she won, our Edusave scholarship money went to dad. It was difficult not to grow up being defensive of our own finance or being financially independent.
Even now, so many years later, my parents are still arguing over money. Its none of my business- their money. However, it is bugging to hear them. I've had enough. I never almost asked them for money. From the day I started doing vacation job, I bought everything I wanted/needed with my own money. I want to live away from their arguments.
My sisters and I have not taken money so seriously but it is still a sensitive topic. I do not like to talk about money at home! Never! I love them all, if only we can put "money" outside this kinship. I'm detesting the days listening about it - so tense.
Our house is a wreck. It is in need of money to replace many things: fridge, cupboards, washing machine, windows, etc. Even buying is a chore, I wish I can NOT CARE for the house for once.
Today, I just want to return home and go straight to bed.
STUPID MONEY STUPID MONEY STUPID MONEY!!!!
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