Stay away, i mean forever

Have you ever feel like shutting away from some people in your life? Probably they were your enemies or the people you once so loved?? And you couldn't stop loving except restraining from feeling that way???

I witnessed my parents, one shouting at the other. I never once did see them hugging or holding hands. I wonder if they are shy in front of us and others, or simply find it impossible to express their love. More importantly, do they love each other?

Sometimes I find myself having the same problem, is that hereditary?? I'm fine really, writing and expressing myself on paper. But when it comes to saying it, I can't do it. Maybe deep inside me, there is this fear. I want someone to love me as much as I do before I finally open the door to the world of eloquent passion. It will be dramatic.

Certain people have been revolving around my life, they are very important people whom caused great changes in me; to the extent, sometimes I am pondering about my real self. However, it has became increasingly difficult to handle my emotions, my words are ruled by them and it will hurt. Hurt you, I mean. For some reasons, I couldn't express love anymore with nice words but the opposite. I want these people to stay away from me, forever.