I'm a nervous wreck

I glanced at my watch, looked around the office. No one was around. It was yesterday. So I allowed my G3 to sleep after almost 10 hours of playing with my fingers. Fished for the keys, locking up the office, thinking,"Damn I'm the last always." There I saw my idol, M. Gorgeous like before. He & James (another Brit bloke). They stepped out of theirs as I came out of mine. We are neighbours ;)

James went to the restroom. I was left standing with M, awaiting for the elevator. If I am a fairy, I'd make the clock stops, the power shuts down, the world on standstill. Just me & him -- we could talk forever. Or maybe he talk, I'll be gloating. He he he. How bad of me, such a thought!! He spoke to me, my knees turning jelly (how shy can I be)... Is my hair a mess? God, I didn't touch up my make-up (which was 12 hours ago!!) ummm.. what should I say?!!

Truthfully, I wasn't breaking down in heebie-jeebies. Perhaps a little self conscious. I had one butterfly in my tummy, not many though.

"Long time since I saw you, how have you been?"
huhhhh.. I always see him around, he never seen me!! Maybe he meant proper talking, that was last X'mas -- very long indeed.

I didn't stammer (if your wondering). Ha Ha. Oopps but my brain wasn't really functioning with so much stress earlier in the day. All I tried to babble about was work -- which I did wish I could stop bringing that up in any conversation! It wasn't long when James joined us for the less than 30 sec elevator ride. God, I wish I wasn't blushing... It was short, too short but at the moment it seemed like hours.

I smiled at James, but I couldn't with M.