Oh boring oh...

What can I say about Frankfurt, just a financial city... To be frank, I didn't see much in an evening, looks boring, feels boring... Just nice cosy places to eat/drink maybe - at least the ones we been to.

Pre-flight IV

Oh my god!! I don't want to go...

It's starting to snow and now I have to leave, how unfair! ... No more broadband, no more fat cheese, no more nice chocolate, no more cold, no more traveling, no more german sausage, no more cheap beer, no more romantic candlelight, no more lovely Flo right besides me :(((

Can someone tell me Chinese New Year is much better than this?? Convince me. I'm not at all excited about home, about Singapore. But I guess I will start to like it when the flight is about to land in Singapore.

I hope so...

Charcoal-Kokos-Kuchen

Baking attempt failed. Again. This is the second time the cake is burnt, worse looking than the charcoal.
The first time was the fruit pudding cake. Today is the chocolate coconut cake. I've to admit the first time was horrendous, the crumbles were black and it was difficult to separate from the fruits. This time, we went out for lunch, leaving the cake in the oven for an hour like it was instructed on the recipe. We came home to a kitchen that seemed to have underwent combustion. That heat and that smell, could suffocate. We opened the door of the oven, everything was pitch black. Ha ha. Needless to say, we got a charred chocolate coconut cake.
I was sulking. Of course, this time I prepared everything on my own, it's my baby cake. My creation! I want to save it... sobs sobs. Flo brought it out to the balcony to cool it down. I was not convinced it was inedible, so I brought a knife and cut beneath the burned crusts. There was light, it wasn't dead exactly.
I took it back to the kitchen, removed all the burned portion carefully. Oh, my lovely cake. We can still eat it. Yummy, chocolate and coconut!

p/s: title means "charcoal coconut cake"

Pre-flight III

Make the most of the time for some romance...

Ha ha. Please don't laugh. But this has to be something we need to do, after all who likes long-distance relationship. That thought is locked at the back of my head, I guess he is doing the same thing. Neither of us spoke of the remaining days, neither of us mentioned about the coming flight... we are keeping as quiet as possible. Almost discreet. *Breathes heavily* Yes, that day is still going to come.

I seem to be enjoying more being the last week of my stay here; the cooking, going out, partying, etc. It has started to get very windy and chilly which isn't very good as it means indoor most of the time. Somehow, it is as pleasant to be in the house. Light the tea-lights, pop the red wine, laze on the couch and enjoy the dvd.

That is bliss.

Coming back alive!

I finally got around to some good editing of my old homepage and just moved them over to a domain. A sub-domain of my Flo, but good enough for an inactive webmaster. I'm feeling lucky!

I also need to help him revamp his page which always make me "laugh" when I see that "gif" animation. Another reason I don't really fancy black for someone so cheerful and lively like him. He wants a simple yet corporate design, lets see when I find the time.

p/s: I'm afraid of going home, so is Tommy (our little pet)... Happy holiday in Singapore, guys!

Geeks rule!!

Aiyoooo.....

I never realized I'm an APPLE mountain-tortoise! I was in conversation recently with my long-lost-but-back-in-touch friends. They happened to be using Macintosh. Even though I'm the oldest user among them, I have limited knowledge on exploring around my little ibook. Or put it that I'm lazy or seldom interested. Somehow this part of me strikes again, and now I think I should put it to good use. I'm so ashamed really :(

But it is actually a very good sharing experience to teach one another the "hidden" functionality or feature or even introducing softwares. I never know I can be such a computer geek too (oh well, sometimes)! Yea, geeks rule!!

Mac nerd heute

I'm a Macintosh nerd today... like it said on the title.

Very fruitful, I think my ibook is loving it when I'm finally doing something to upgrade him than just plain chatting and boring surfing. I try to download most updated versions for the softwares (yea, chat messengers too oopss..) and some other useful ones of course. Even though the touch-pad failed to work a couple of times and the connection isn't that fast, don't worry, you're still my baby!

Pre-flight II

Make it feel like a holiday.

Imagine I came to Germany and just for a week holiday, do what a tourist does.

Shop. I shopped like crazy today, had a day out on my own in the city. It felt like I was back in London, that sense of freedom was overwhelming. I was in love with myself, drowned in the buzzing little city, and my legs never complained of the whole 6 hours. I'm now well-known for being a bargain-shopper. Everything I bought are on discount and pretty, of cos not including the food (yay, chocolate yay)!

Leave like the end of a holiday too... This one is not easy, pretending is always the hardest thing for me. Oh well, I should look forward to the Chinese New Year, isn't it... I wish I am more enthusiastic about it!

Raving at 3am

Finally, I get to shake my ass!!!

It was Alex's (flo's mate) birthday, we gathered at The Wild Geese (an Irish pub) for lovely Kilkenny. Later we headed alone to dance.

Pre-flight I

7 more days... I'll be sitting and enjoying my free flight meals again.

Somehow I'm looking forward to see my dear friends, my family, Singapore (how are you); also to the flight. Being on the plane is one of the things I like most among traveling! Another part of me is trying to stay happy whilst I'm here - in Germany.

Like the days before my departure to London, the scenes are re-enacting again. No packing till the last 3 days. No countdown (at least I always try not to). Please laugh. Eat more, sleep more, play more...

The feelings aren't exactly the same though, probably because this time I'm going back to somewhere I have always been familiar with. My heart finally tries to hint me where to go... "Back there somewhere," it said. More like a whisper, I can't be sure but at least I think that is what I might do.

Back there?! United Kingdom. Germany after all can't be a home to me without a permit.

Lingering thoughts in my head has been pushing the left brain to working harder, it makes me feel like going back to school and take a book in my hand again. Study a language! Am I after all not a very creative person I don't know... My right brain only seems to work in social context, I can't even draw proper even though I really love drawing. Sigh.

And I have to admit my Maths sucks now, okay... Girls, new accountant please :)

Where thee heart lies???

Sitting here for a moment, I try to figure out my future ahead. It's 2005. It's new, fresh and a beginning... yet I'm left pondering what's next. This is my life, I'm currently patting my tummy with satisfaction to the distance I've came to.

2 weeks more and I will be home. Do I want to go home, do I wish to go home?? Do I like to stay here, do I think I can stay here?? I have no idea. That fear of returning home has since evaporated, the desire to stay put is slowly diminishing.

What is more important? Friends, family, money, career or love?? I can't seem to distinguish what should be my priority now? What is my immediate goal? Can I give up something for another?? Should I pursue what the society deems to be right or what my heart is telling me? My heart is not saying anything, it's beating silently.

For once, I felt like I'm standing in front of a crossroad again. Before I left for London, I chose what my heart said and I never regretted. This time, I need to make another decision again. I'm getting tired, or am I catching up with my age... Why do I feel so old?? Changes are good even though I'm exhausted every time it modified a part of me or my lifestyle. Am I reverting to the old boring Trixy again, Oh no... I wouldn't want that!

I'm touching my forehead checking for a temperature. Am I sick? What is coming over me? I'm feeling just a little lost, besides that I think I'm all right. A short break back home in Singapore might be do me good, I hope it will soon dawn on me where's the next place I'm setting my foot into.

~ i need some vitamins ~

Posh and Proud

This is how I would describe Paris and its Parisians.

I didn't have a good impression of the French and visiting Paris hasn't left me a better impression. One of my friends was agreeing with me,"Paris will be beautiful if only the French weren't there..."

Eiffel tower was one of the best things Paris is magnificient for. We visited at night, shivery at the top of the tower, it can be quite an experience!! I wasn't interested in its history, I didn't think Paris was romantic, I didn't think the French were nice. That somehow sums it all. France again for me??? I'll think twice.

It was a little like London. But museums in London are mostly free, british are friendlier (at least they speak English, the French just pretend not to understand), they sell baguettes everywhere instead of fish and chips. Many parts of Paris are actually too touristic, too many fancy restaurants and cafes, too many blacks residing, uneconomical transport system that still uses paper tickets... They still have some nice shops and classy clothes, I just didn't get around to do any shopping this time!

We paid Musée du Louvre a visit, it was like British Museum, so it wasn't fascinating! The pyramids (La pyramide) were more interesting, and make great pictures :) Biggest museum in the world?! Oh well, a tour on the exterior will do I reckon unless of course you are there for Mona Lisa portrait (which I'm not). But I wanted to visit a decent museum at least.

One thing I do really like is PAUL Pâtisserie. I can't seem to get enough of their melting chocolate cake -- bottom of page. That probably is the only thing I miss about Paris! He he he...

Red-lights Amsterdam

No one wants to see its Heineken brewery, even the windmill tour package seems so commercial. At least I saw the windmills nonetheless. We stayed with Bulldog Hostel right in the middle of the red-lights district area. Walk down an alley with all the skimpy dressed chicks posing in their glass cabins, you could almost imagine what would happen next. Sex shops are at every corner, museums claiming about sex and erotica lined along the street, souvenir shops filled with wooden clogs - if you are to ask me what I've seen.

Besides its legal to smoke pots (or etc), its infamous porn industry, postcards with explicit illustration, some scary strangers whom stopped you in the way and asked for money; Amsterdam is a rather chilled out city.

If you didn't know this, this is what the guide explained, Holland is a state (just like England) but Amsterdam (just like London) is the city. Netherlands means "Flat land". All the land/houses are built under sea level, they have countless canals (what they are again famous for) and dams to keep the water back. So visit the city before one day the sea is going to drown this "underground" land.

I'm starting to love history, I never liked it anyway. We visited Anne Frank Museum, a house which has simply bewitched me. It tells of the second world war and how the Jews has suffered. The real encounter and diary of this Jewish girl (whom died at 15) has since moved the world with her writing. The house which the family hid during the war is now the Anne Frank Museum, named after her. Just like how I knew about the history of Germany before the east and west came together in 1990, and how they were imprisoned in their home country and restricted to travel. Now I'm being to love things you came to learn about when you move about...

What I <3 about Holland/Amsterdam:
Nice small shops
Farm houses (out of Amsterdam)
Beautifully painted clogs
Sex shops (look at the toys!) plus their sex humor
Canal cruise
Heineken beer
Maoz falafel

Something interesting, "Coffeeshop" in Amsterdam are for drugs, unlike Singapore's coffeeshop! Oh, "Magic mushroom" are drugs!

No windmills, no tulips, no big flower garden

Just a Heineken brewery and maybe the canals, yea Holland, here I come. Even though all the best things might be in Rotterdam, I've chosen the usual popular Amsterdam. Sometimes in life, the better thing is just not in the limelight! Then again, I do get to see the Eiffel Tower soon too - oh romantic paris... :)

Happy holidays to me, I will be back to update you guys again!

oh lord, make this year a better one!

I'm just thinking I should blog on the 1st day of the new 2005, even though its over an hour after midnight. I had a very different celebration this year on New Year's Eve, even though something came at the wrong timing the day was fun with all these friends I've made. So people, make the most out of this one if you are still grumbling over how bad the past year had been. May the world unite to aid the Tsunami's victims... and I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for my friends whom went to Thailand (pls be safe, bless them!)...

HAPPY NEW YEAR SINGAPORE & FRIENDS